You Said..

You said that when I need a hug,you'll be my pillow.. You said that you will be my smile if I wanna be happy.. and you even said that you'll be a shoulder for me to cry on..but,where are you now? Why can't I see any of those things you said..? Why aren't you here when I need you the most? Why aren't you by my side when I really want someone to share happiness and sadness with? I believe in what you said.. I still do.. but I'm tired of trying to reach out to you,yet unable to catch or grab you every single time... I need you in my life and I don't want to ever lose you.. You are very precious to me.. miss ya so much..

Someday,My Prince Will Come..

Assalamualaikum.. hello everyone.. how is your day today? Good? Bad? I hope that all of you had a great day but if you had a bad day,don't worry, tomorrow might bring better things for you..so,cheer up and put a smile on your face,okie? ^^

Okie, this post is actually should be written like months ago,but I never really have any idea on what to write.. By the way, the title is actually a song title, just as info for those who might not know this song.. So, the reason why I want to write this post is that people around me, family or friends are very very concern about my love life.. I was like constantly asked about boyfriends and relationships..

' When are you going to have a boyfriend? Don't you have anyone you like? I think he's good enough,why don't you date him? When you finish your study,don't you have any thoughts on settling down, get married and build a family? I'm waiting for your wedding invitation in two or three years to come,ok?'

Aaaiiiigooooo..... hahaha.. seriously? Ya, I appreciate the concern,but is that really necessary? I mean, ya, of course I want to date, have a boyfriend and get married, but I haven't found the right one yet so, please just relax.. I believe that someday my prince will come.. I'm not looking for a perfect Prince Charming kind of guy.. So,it won't be that hard to find him.. haha.. I hope so.. Of course, all girls in this world have a list on how their partner should be.. my list? hhhmmm.. simple.. I look for these three things in a guy..

1) He's a total gentleman.. I mean like asking my parents for permission before asking me to go out with him,does not mind carrying my bag around and try to blend in with my friends and family..

2) He accepts my past, my present and my future.. Someone who accepts all my flaws..

3) He is able to guide me and completes me..like a missing puzzle..

Found this quote at Luaquotes.com..

"People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other's personalities. Who wouldn't? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that's not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner's faults honestly and say, I can work around that. I can make something out of it.'? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it's always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you." - Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage

It is quite hard to find that one person who can accepts all the flaws.. but seriously girls.. remember this..

"The only guy that deserves you.. is the one that thinks he doesn't. the one that'll stick by your side.. no matter how much you mess up. and the one who will forgive you.. mistake after mistake.."

I don't think that it is wrong if I take some time to be single for a while and carefully find that someone.. because I know now that it hurts when you fall,so might as well take a good look down before I jump,right?hee

Besides,I am not sure how to love unconditionally,I don't know how to give as much as I received, and it is hard to trust love once more and not hate it..But I know one thing for sure, if I found that someone,that mr. right,it will be the one and only.. forever... ^_____^

Someday my prince will come.. I just have to wait and open my heart for new love to come,right? guess that is all for now.. For those who are in the same shoes as me, don't worry.. your time to love and be loved will come... your true love will find you someday.. to those who are in love, just remember that love is a fragile thing.. You can't really be sure that it will never be broken, but you can try as best as possible to protect this fragile yet precious thing for as long as you can...and if it does not last, at least be happy that you are given that chance, unlike others who never once got any chance in love..

Take care everyone.. do pray for me,okie? that I will find a good guy which suits me exactly someday.. good nyte.. assalamualaikum..^^

My Self- Confidence

Assalamualaikum.. Hai to all my readers..Well,this is not going to be a long post(I hope).. but before I proceed on writing about this topic,there is something that I want to say about my previous post.. when I read back what I wrote, I realized that I didn't even say the main reason I'm writing it.. I'm just rambling throughout the post,didn't I? huhu.. Okie, actually I wanted to emphasize on the chorus of that song.. you can read the lyrics and there's a part that goes "I think I'm Ugly, And nobody wants to love me",right? This is not right.. how can a person be so sure that nobody is going to love him or her? Come one, love is universal,love is blind, love is not just about looks.. So,you can think like for a lifetime that you are ugly, but there will always be someone somewhere out there that can see just how beautiful you are..and will love you for who you are..and when you meet that person, I bet you are going to ask that person silly questions like 'why do you like me? what exactly is attractive about me? you should get your eyes checked before you say that I'm beautiful..' hee.. sorry, I had experienced this before so,ya.. I'm one of those who will not believe it when guys give compliments.. but thanks though, I appreciate all of the compliments since I rarely receive any.. hee..So, I guess that is pretty clear,right? Just be yourself.. and believe that you are beautiful.. ^^

Back to this post..hhmm.. don't really have a lot to say.. It is just that my mom keeps on asking me the same question and telling me the same thing over and over again.. So, I want some advice from all of you..my mom keep telling me to be more confident like when talking to other people,or even when I make something on my own, I tend to not be confident about the results.. example,cooking.. yeah, I'm lacking but I'm trying my best... my mom suggested that I entered some camp or something,that might be able to make me feel more confident about myself and I will not be scared when I talk to other people...

What do you think readers? what should I do? do tell me what you think.. got to go for now.. till I see you again in next post.. assalamualaikum..^^

Beautiful vs Ugly..

Assalamualaikum..Hello everybody.. I've read some recent comments at my chatbox and I am so happy to read the compliments and all of the positive comments.. Thank you so much to all of you..It means a lot to me.. It really gave me the strength to continue on writing and updating this blog, knowing there are people out there who wants to follow it..Thanks ya..^^

Okie...today's topic is Beautiful Vs Ugly.. Well, at first I wanted to write about the advantages and disadvantages of being beautiful but then,I heard a song called UGLY by 2NE1 and the lyrics is very interesting.. huhu.. The song should already start playing by the time you read this.. It's a great song.. The lyrics and translations will be at the end of this post..:)

To be honest if we rated people's beauty based on looks only, yeah,for sure there will be two categories,the beautiful ones and the ugly ones..but as for me, beauty is not just about the outside appearance but who we are inside can also make us become very beautiful..Just like this quote I found..

'Beauty is how you feel inside,and it reflects in your eyes.It is not something physical. It is not in the face,beauty is a light in the heart...'

You know,being beautiful gives a lot of advantages.. the only disadvantage would be annoyed by guys who are trying to get their attention.. but the good thing is that beautiful girls will always have lots of options to choose.. but sometimes,when they tend to have that options, they become greedy and never appreciate what they already have.. And that is not a good thing to do..

Being not so beautiful physically like you know, just the average look is not really a bad thing.. it's okay as long as you have a kind heart inside.. I mean nowadays, people are smart enough to not just judge people based on their looks.. most people will look for honesty, sincerity,that kind of inner beauty..

We shouldn't think that we are ugly.. I often did that,but then, it will only makes me felt so not confident about myself.. Because if we think we are ugly,then that's how people will see us as.. so,think of yourself as a beauty, whether it is the outer or inner beauty,everyone in this world in beautiful and special in their own way.. So,

You know, sometimes being beautiful gives you a headache.. I mean,there are moments when you can't even be friends with guys that already have girlfriends.. Cuz their girlfriends will be so jealous of you and think that you want to steal their boyfriends..and then you will also have a lot of guys lining up to ask you out and you have no idea which one of them that you should say yes to..

I know..I know.. I'm not making any sense.. I guess I should stop here.. but whatever it is,someone's look,whether it is beautiful or ugly depending on the way we see it,he or she is still a normal human being with feelings.. so, why don't we get to know that person first before we judge him or her,sounds good right? Conclusion? Everyone's beautiful.. In their own way.. Some might see it, some might never will,but we should first believe in ourselves that we are beautiful..

That's all for now.. As I promised, below is the lyrics and translations for the song I mentioned just now.. Take care everybody.. ^_^assalamualaikum..

LYRICS:

[CL] Balkge useobojiman
Nae mame deulji anha
Nan yeppeuji anha areumdapji anha
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

[BOM] Norael bulleobojiman
Amudo deutji anha
Nan yeppeuji anha areumdapji anha
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

[DARA] Nan wae ireohke motnan geolkka
Eoddeokhamyeon nado neocheoreom hwanhage
Useobol su isseolkka

[MINJI] Ddo hwagana wae neul wanbyeokhaji mothae
I ggaejin geoul sok motnan moseubeul hyanghae
Tathagiman hae

[BOM] Chyeodabojima jigeum I neuggimi shilheonan
Eodironga sumgoman shipeo
Beoseo nago shipeo
I sesangeun geojitmal

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’
me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know
I’m ugly

[MINJI] Nal shwipge ihaehandago hajima
Mot saenggigo bbiddoleojin nae maeumi neol
Wonmanghaljido molla

[BOM] Mal shikijima nan neowa eoulliji mothae
Geu jalnan nunbit sok chagawoon gashiki nal
Summakhige hae

[MINJI] Dagaojima neoui gwanshimjocha shilheo nan
Eodironga ddeonago shipeo sori chigo
Shipeo
I sesangeun geojitmal

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’
me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know
I’m ugly

[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone x 2

Ddaddeuthamiran eopseo
Gyeoten amudo eopseo

All alone I’m all alone x 2
I’m always all alone

Ddaddeuthamiran eopseo
Gyeoten geu nugudo nal anajul saram eopseo

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’
me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know
I’m ugly

//

TRANSLATION:

[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

[BOM] I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

[DARA] Why am I this ugly
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror

[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape
This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you

[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me

[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out
This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone x 2

There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side

All alone
I’m all alone x 2
I’m always alone

There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

Cheers are Necessary..^^

Assalamualaikum..Hola readers.. I wanted to write about this yesterday but didn't have enough free time to do so.. Hopefully I'll be able to finish this by midnight.. haha.. Cheers are necessary...why is that so? any idea anyone? what I mean by cheers are words that show others just how much you support them, and how much you believe in them..

The reason why I'm giving my opinion about this topic is that I am in the process of completing my 8 hour driving lessons.. and I believe that when one are going through this kind of thing,learning something new which are unfamiliar to them, cheers from other people around them are very important.. for example in my case, my sister had gotten her license a couple of years ago so it make me feel a little worry..can I drive as good as her..will I be able to pass.. I think about all this a lot of time.. huhu.. besides that,since my family is always busy, I never have the chance to practice by myself..

Therefore,I strongly believe that support and cheers are necessary.. because sometimes instead of just you believing in yourself,you want to know that others believe in you as well.. that you are not alone while walking down that path.. Cheers can really boast up someone's determination to succeed.. Back in Shah Alam, since saying Fighting! is pretty much a trend these days, I often said that to my classmates and housemates whenever there's test,quiz or examz coming around.. What I am trying to say is we should not neglect this kind of things. We should always tell others Good Luck,Do Your Best, I Believe in You, You Can Do It.. Cause it really does make a difference in someone's determination..

I remembered back in Semester 2,I had a lecturer named Dr Ayoub and he taught us Material and Energy Balance.. He was actually replacing our lecturer that were on leave and it was like almost the end of the semester so,all we did with him was more like revisions and exercises.. but his way of teaching is pretty interesting..he divided us into groups and asked each group to answer different questions.. but the interesting part is that he would always say," Excellent! Very Good!" when we answered that question correctly even if it was like the easiest question for that chapter..I would wonder by myself why did he kept saying excellent over and over again..I don't quite understand it then,but I do now..

I realized that there are some among us that needed that kind of words to keep them going.. to make them felt more confident.. some might not need it but there are others who do.. they want that type of attention.. attention in a way that they are complimented and applauded for the good or right or even small things that they did.. I guess we can say it as a way to show that they need more attention from people around them..you can't look down on these people.. because everyone like to receive compliments right..? it just that some might need more than just the usual ones..

One other thing.. you know how much it meant to someone if instead of you saying sarcastically,"Eayy, why are you being like this? saying that you are nervous, that you don't know whether you can make it or not but then in the end.you will still do very well.. You always did,so why worry so much?",it will be much better if you just say, " Do your best, I believe that you can do it.. Don't worry,just believe in yourself.." ? It is very very meaningful and precious to them..

I mean,ya,you maybe thought that since that person always do well on her own and can be independent at all times, she will still do well anyway and doesn't really need all that cheers..but who knows that deep down that person may actually want to be taken care of,want to be dependent on someone once in awhile.. so,please don't judge books by its cover my frenz..

Guess that is all I can say from now.. unfortunately,it is now past midnight.. haha.. can't keep my promise of posting this before midnight though.. sorry.. huhu.. have a good day tomorrow.. good night everybody.. sleep tight.. assalamualaikum..^^

P/S: So, don't forget to cheer and show your support to your friends and family.. they might really need it.. as for me, I'll cheer for myself.. haha.. Ara,Fighting~! Chalhakaeyo..(I'll do my best)

Safe Like A Painting..

"You gradually get over the pain. It doesn't go away, not for a long time, but it becomes easier to live with. One morning you wake up and he's not the first thing on your mind. And then a few months down the line you realize you've made it through half the day without thinking of him. Sometimes it takes months, sometimes, years, but eventually you reach a point when you only think about them occasionally. You manage to do this because you don't see them, you don't hear about them, you try not to think about them. And then you bump into them walking down the street, or someone unexpected mentions their name . . . and the memories come flooding back." - Straight Talking by Jane Green

Assalamualaikum.. Hello to all readers.. It's a sunny day here in KK..how's yours? Well, I don't really know what to do here at home so,I decided to just update this blog.. Just in case, I might not be able to update it for a long time after this.. So, the quote above was taken from Luaquotes.com.. Have any of you experience this kind of thing.. I know I do.. :P But, I want to focus on the last 4 words of this quote...'Memories come flooding back'..

I remember when I was in Shah Alam, my roommates and I would just talk about something and then we ended up talking about other topics that are so not connected at all to what we first talked about.. But it is fun that way.. when you open up yourself and share your stories to other people.. then,we will realize that maybe one of them really do understand what we felt since she had been through the same thing.. And during that girl talk, wuhuu..~all the memories just keep coming back.. it's like there's flood in my mind somewhere.. But I noticed one thing though, that I can smile while telling them,but my eyes will still be watery..aiigooo.. 'You are such a weak person,Zahra.' I always thought that..

However, it was also during that time, me and my roommates would smile thinking about all the good times we had in our own past.. all the good things we shared with others.. It was great talking about the past as we can all laugh about it right now and realize so many things about ourselves.. how stupid we were,how immature and how childish we acted.. I'm sure all of you will realise the same thing, right?

So, I hope that all of us will keep those beautiful memories safe just like a painting.. a very beautiful painting.. because it is always nice to be able to look back once in awhile..

Beautiful isn't it? everybody have this kind of memories in their life.. a very nice and happy one.. guess that is all for now.. what I'm trying to say is that despite of that one reason to make you feel hurt, there are thousands of reasons to make you feel happy.. so, hold on to that thousands and let go of that one reason.. you will find how worth it,it will be.. take care and have a nice day.. assalamualaikum ^_^

A Cool Friend..

" A cool friend is not someone who got scared when you raise up your hand acting as if you are going to hit her or him,but someone who grab your hand right on time and hold it tightly.."

Assalamualaikum.. hello everyone..just doing this while waiting for a TV show to start.. huhu.. I got this quote from Gag Concert.. but then,since I always write in English, I want to write in Malay for this one..heee ^_^

Siapa sangka kan,daripada program lawak pun boleh dapat kata-kata yang boleh kita renungkan bersama.. secara asasnya,kata-kata ni membawa maksud.. jadilah seorang kawan yang cool,yang tidak takut pada kawan sendiri.. jadilah seorang kawan yang melakukan sesuatu perkara itu bersama kawan dan bukannya untuk kawan..persahabatan adalah sesuatu yang sangat bernilai harganya.. jangan rosakkan ia dengan perasaan yang tidak ikhlas dan terpaksa.. Kawan yang sebenar adalah kawan yang berani menghulurkan tangan dan memegang tangan kawannya di saat dia diperlukan... so, jadilah seorang yang cool dan jadilah kawan yang cool kepada orang di sekeliling anda.. okie? ingat,jangan takut pada kawan, tapi hormatilah di antara satu sama lain..

Hingga di sini untuk kali ini.. pendek je.. takut asyik2 panjang nanti,bosan pulak orang baca.. hehe.. take care.. sweet dreams.. good night :) assalamualaikum..

Train of Life..

Assalamualaikum.. hai everyone.. wow.. it really has been weeks since I posted something... Now,I'm done with the examz and I am back at home in Sabah.. hehe.. can't really say I'm back to my hometown,can I? nothing much happened in the past few days.. so,let's get on with what this post should be about okie?

Train of Life.. This idea popped out a few days ago.. But I never really have the right mood to put my fingers to work.. haha.. for me, I think life is like a journey traveled by train.. it can be other transportation like buses, but I like train better.. I'm being weird,right? sorry about that..

There are two different situations.. Firstly, is when two train begins to travel from the same station but ended up at different station.. Second, is when two train traveled from different station ended up at the same station as their last destination..

Quite similar to life isn't it? just think of that one train as you and other trains as people that you met in your life.. in every destination, you meet different people.. you say goodbye to them at some point and you might meet them again someday,if fated so.. or you might never be able to see them again and you will make new friends.. and along the way, there might be problems that surfaces.. there are some train that might have some technical problem, unexpected accident,and so on.. thus,unable to reach their final destination..

That's simply what life is all about.. we might think that we can stay together with that person, but in the end, fate says otherwise.. that our destinations are different..people come and go.. we gain some, we lose some.. we have new friends and old friends.. all we met at different point in our life.. I think the reason I write this post is that I noticed how people have changed through all this years.. I am going to be 21 this year, and I'm still studying.. I heard that one of my friend from primary school are now married and have a child already.. it got me thinking, 'each and every one of us really have our own story in life,isn't it?'

But then again,that's life.. we will all experience different kind of ups and downs.. you know, I kept reflecting and comparing my current condition with my past, and at first I thought that it seems like when others are moving forward, I kept on moving backwards...now.. I think that maybe I am just experiencing the 'down' moments.. it will end.. sooner or later..and everything will become better..

So,no matter what.. life is like a train.. and sometimes, it is not the destination that really matters,but the journey towards it instead..it is the journey that taught us a lot of different things and we will keep on changing little by little.. and thus,making us as the person we are now.. and just accept the fact that people whom are in our life will also keep on changing.. even if we want so badly to hold on,sometimes the only right thing to do is to let go.. along the way,we might even lose the one we really love and we will face so many more difficulties which at some point affects us too much.. but..as the quote says..

"In life, we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unkept promise, an unheard request, an irreplaceable loss, an unreachable dream, and an unforgettable first love. Still, we have to be happy anyhow, cause life goes on." - Anon

Yupz.. life goes on people.. keep that in mind.. guess that is all from now.. take care everyone.. :) good night..

p/s: thanks to all that complimented my blog.. appreciate it a lot.. and to those who decided to follow my blog, kamsahamnida!(thank you)..^^

My Pain, Your Happiness..

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone..I know I said that there is going to be a post coming up right after I posted the last one.. But then,I really can't put my mind into it..too many things to think,I guess.. Sorry.. and I see that from my chatbox,there are a few comments saying that they like my blog.. Thank you so much..yesterday ,I sat for my first final exam paper.. it was really really full of challenging questions.. huhu.. I thought that my brain will burst into tiny pieces..lolz..

Okie, enough about me.. let's get on with the post should we.. ? Owh,by the way, this is not about me.. the title was just to let you feel a little intrigued.. hehe..

Close your eyes and think.. when you were bored,where did you go? When you were feeling sad,what did you do? When you really just wanna have fun, what will you do?For me, when I'm bored,I will watch a movie or drama or maybe on9.. When I'm sad, I like to go to the beach or just eat ice-cream at home and listen to songs..When I wanna have fun, I'll go to malls or bowling, if there's an amusement park,that's even better.. but then,what does this have to with 'My Pain, Your Happiness?'

Well,have you ever just for once think about the sacrifices made by all people involved in building the mall,creating the movie or producing the ice-cream? I'm not talking about emotional pain.. But physical pain.. Some people work for money,obviously.. some work because they really love what they are doing.. but does any of them realised how much their hard work brings happiness to others? all we know was to eat yummy foods,go to beautiful places and but lots of things.. when we did all that,we will feel very happy..

Huhu.. I'm giving up..somehow my idea doesn't come out nice in words.. but what I am trying to say is don't u think that's great? working hard on something, even if you are in pain. isn't it going to be worth it when you know that you make someone happy? even if you don't know who that person might be..but isn't it great to know that someone felt thankful towards you.. ?

And now it's about me..hee...I hope to be those kind of people.. to put my heart into something, completing it in the very best way and hope that it will bring happiness to other people.. some might afraid that someday,they are going to be forgotten,I'm not excluded.. Sometimes,I think I tried too hard to make people notice me..because I want to be remembered.. but I think now, as long as I can do something that can brings happiness to lots of people,it wouldn't really matter anymore whether or not I am remembered.. Smile and laughters can change people's lives.. I want to be the reason for that smiles and laughters. How? I'm not sure myself for the time being..

I guess that is all..but before that, I want to thank everybody in this world for your contributions in order for others to be able to have fun at great venues, eat delicious foods and enjoy their life.. Do remember that. each and everyone of us are special.. such pain of us might give others happiness... so,try to do something that will bring lots of happy memories,okie? till I see you again.. take care everyone.. assalamualaikum..

p/s: If you were to choose between a thin cup with unattractive design and a slight crack and a thick,simple and white glass,which one will it be? It will be the glass right? then don't bother the cup anymore..

When I'm Ready, I Will Take One Step Further..

Assalamualaikum.. Anyeonghaseyo.. hello everyone.. Thanks for dropping by ya.. There is less than 3 days now before my first final exam paper.. I'm very very nervous right now.. huhu.. But then,I guess I should just do my very best.. Hwaiting!

Today,my post will be more about me,and I really just want to let it out of head.. It's nothing important really,so if you doesn't want to read it,it's fine.. I don't mind..hee.. Well,last year,it would be a lie if I say I never thought of having a relationship.. I thought about it a lot,more when I saw that most of my cousins seems to have someone special.. haha..

However,when there are chances that came knocking, I tend to always let it go.. and when people around me asked for the reason why,I will give them so many excuses.. now that I think really really hard on it, I realise that I was just making all those excuses up to run away from the fact that I am nowhere near ready to take that one step forward.. There are people out there who might felt the same way as I did,right? I know there are...hee..

I guess deep down inside I am still too afraid.. so,it's like I keep on standing at one spot and never go anywhere,too afraid that once I begin to walk,I will get lost and can't find my way back..that's exactly how I felt..owh..btw,I found this quote and I believe that someday that day will come..

"Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there, because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't. But then one day you feel something else. Something that feels wrong only because it's so unfamiliar, and in that moment you realize you're happy." - One Tree Hill

And this other quote,if we really believe that true love exist in this world, then we might find them in the most unexpected way, it will come to us,only when is still unknown..

Sometimes,people leave us in order for us to find someone better. Someone who we deserve and who deserve our love. Even if you lost a love once,don't lose hope because your true love will always find its way to you no matter what..

So, I think that I should really take my time.. I mean despite of the fact that ya,I want to feel that feeling again,but it's best not to if I know that I'm not ready.. this is a promise to myself.. that once I'm ready, I will take that one step forward.. I will give myself a chance to experience it one more time,and hopefully when that time come, I will choose the right one..

That's all everybody.. another post will be coming up..hee.. so,people..if you have the same situation as I do, take your time.. being single isn't that bad.. It is fun in some ways.. heee.. take care.. assalamualaikum.. Saranghae..^_^