Memoirs Of Azzahra Azhar

Safe Like A Painting..

2012-01-31T11:35:00.001+08:00

"You gradually get over the pain. It doesn't go away, not for a long time, but it becomes easier to live with. One morning you wake up and he's not the first thing on your mind. And then a few months down the line you realize you've made it through half the day without thinking of him. Sometimes it takes months, sometimes, years, but eventually you reach a point when you only think about them occasionally. You manage to do this because you don't see them, you don't hear about them, you try not to think about them. And then you bump into them walking down the street, or someone unexpected mentions their name . . . and the memories come flooding back." - Straight Talking by Jane Green

Assalamualaikum.. Hello to all readers.. It's a sunny day here in KK..how's yours? Well, I don't really know what to do here at home so,I decided to just update this blog.. Just in case, I might not be able to update it for a long time after this.. So, the quote above was taken from Luaquotes.com.. Have any of you experience this kind of thing.. I know I do.. :P But, I want to focus on the last 4 words of this quote...'Memories come flooding back'..

I remember when I was in Shah Alam, my roommates and I would just talk about something and then we ended up talking about other topics that are so not connected at all to what we first talked about.. But it is fun that way.. when you open up yourself and share your stories to other people.. then,we will realize that maybe one of them really do understand what we felt since she had been through the same thing.. And during that girl talk, wuhuu..~all the memories just keep coming back.. it's like there's flood in my mind somewhere.. But I noticed one thing though, that I can smile while telling them,but my eyes will still be watery..aiigooo.. 'You are such a weak person,Zahra.' I always thought that..

However, but it was also during that time, me and my roommates would smile thinking about all the good times we had in our own past.. all the good things we shared with others.. It was great talking about the past as we can all laugh about it right now and realize so many things about ourselves.. how stupid we were,how immature and how childish we acted.. I'm sure all of you will realise the same thing, right?

So, I hope that all of us will keep those beautiful memories safe just like a painting.. a very beautiful painting.. because it is always nice to be able to look back once in awhile..

Beautiful isn't it? everybody have this kind of memories in their life.. a very nice and happy one.. guess that is all for now.. what I'm trying to say is that despite of that one reason to make you feel hurt, there are thousands of reasons to make you feel happy.. so, hold on to that thousands and let go of that one reason.. you will find how worth it,it will be.. take care and have a nice day.. assalamualaikum ^_^

A Cool Friend..

2012-01-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

" A cool friend is not someone who got scared when you raise up your hand acting as if you are going to hit her or him,but someone who grab your hand right on time and hold it tightly.."

Assalamualaikum.. hello everyone..just doing this while waiting for a TV show to start.. huhu.. I got this quote from Gag Concert.. but then,since I always write in English, I want to write in Malay for this one..heee ^_^

Siapa sangka kan,daripada program lawak pun boleh dapat kata-kata yang boleh kita renungkan bersama.. secara asasnya,kata-kata ni membawa maksud.. jadilah seorang kawan yang cool,yang tidak takut pada kawan sendiri.. jadilah seorang kawan yang melakukan sesuatu perkara itu bersama kawan dan bukannya untuk kawan..persahabatan adalah sesuatu yang sangat bernilai harganya.. jangan rosakkan ia dengan perasaan yang tidak ikhlas dan terpaksa.. Kawan yang sebenar adalah kawan yang berani menghulurkan tangan dan memegang tangan kawannya di saat dia diperlukan... so, jadilah seorang yang cool dan jadilah kawan yang cool kepada orang di sekeliling anda.. okie? ingat,jangan takut pada kawan, tapi hormatilah di antara satu sama lain..

Hingga di sini untuk kali ini.. pendek je.. takut asyik2 panjang nanti,bosan pulak orang baca.. hehe.. take care.. sweet dreams.. good night :) assalamualaikum..

Train of Life..

2012-01-29T17:39:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hai everyone.. wow.. it really has been weeks since I posted something... Now,I'm done with the examz and I am back at home in Sabah.. hehe.. can't really say I'm back to my hometown,can I? nothing much happened in the past few days.. so,let's get on with what this post should be about okie?

Train of Life.. This idea popped out a few days ago.. But I never really have the right mood to put my fingers to work.. haha.. for me, I think life is like a journey traveled by train.. it can be other transportation like buses, but I like train better.. I'm being weird,right? sorry about that..

There are two different situations.. Firstly, is when two train begins to travel from the same station but ended up at different station.. Second, is when two train traveled from different station ended up at the same station as their last destination..

Quite similar to life isn't it? just think of that one train as you and other trains as people that you met in your life.. in every destination, you meet different people.. you say goodbye to them at some point and you might meet them again someday,if fated so.. or you might never be able to see them again and you will make new friends.. and along the way, there might be problems that surfaces.. there are some train that might have some technical problem, unexpected accident,and so on.. thus,unable to reach their final destination..

That's simply what life is all about.. we might think that we can stay together with that person, but in the end, fate says otherwise.. that our destinations are different..people come and go.. we gain some, we lose some.. we have new friends and old friends.. all we met at different point in our life.. I think the reason I write this post is that I noticed how people have changed through all this years.. I am going to be 21 this year, and I'm still studying.. I heard that one of my friend from primary school are now married and have a child already.. it got me thinking, 'each and every one of us really have our own story in life,isn't it?'

But then again,that's life.. we will all experience different kind of ups and downs.. you know, I kept reflecting and comparing my current condition with my past, and at first I thought that it seems like when others are moving forward, I kept on moving backwards...now.. I think that maybe I am just experiencing the 'down' moments.. it will end.. sooner or later..and everything will become better..

So,no matter what.. life is like a train.. and sometimes, it is not the destination that really matters,but the journey towards it instead..it is the journey that taught us a lot of different things and we will keep on changing little by little.. and thus,making us as the person we are now.. and just accept the fact that people whom are in our life will also keep on changing.. even if we want so badly to hold on,sometimes the only right thing to do is to let go.. along the way,we might even lose the one we really love and we will face so many more difficulties which at some point affects us too much.. but..as the quote says..

"In life, we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unkept promise, an unheard request, an irreplaceable loss, an unreachable dream, and an unforgettable first love. Still, we have to be happy anyhow, cause life goes on." - Anon

Yupz.. life goes on people.. keep that in mind.. guess that is all from now.. take care everyone.. :) good night..

p/s: thanks to all that complimented my blog.. appreciate it a lot.. and to those who decided to follow my blog, kamsahamnida!(thank you)..^^

My Pain, Your Happiness..

2012-01-09T03:30:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone..I know I said that there is going to be a post coming up right after I posted the last one.. But then,I really can't put my mind into it..too many things to think,I guess.. Sorry.. and I see that from my chatbox,there are a few comments saying that they like my blog.. Thank you so much..yesterday ,I sat for my first final exam paper.. it was really really full of challenging questions.. huhu.. I thought that my brain will burst into tiny pieces..lolz..

Okie, enough about me.. let's get on with the post should we.. ? Owh,by the way, this is not about me.. the title was just to let you feel a little intrigued.. hehe..

Close your eyes and think.. when you were bored,where did you go? When you were feeling sad,what did you do? When you really just wanna have fun, what will you do?For me, when I'm bored,I will watch a movie or drama or maybe on9.. When I'm sad, I like to go to the beach or just eat ice-cream at home and listen to songs..When I wanna have fun, I'll go to malls or bowling, if there's an amusement park,that's even better.. but then,what does this have to with 'My Pain, Your Happiness?'

Well,have you ever just for once think about the sacrifices made by all people involved in building the mall,creating the movie or producing the ice-cream? I'm not talking about emotional pain.. But physical pain.. Some people work for money,obviously.. some work because they really love what they are doing.. but does any of them realised how much their hard work brings happiness to others? all we know was to eat yummy foods,go to beautiful places and but lots of things.. when we did all that,we will feel very happy..

Huhu.. I'm giving up..somehow my idea doesn't come out nice in words.. but what I am trying to say is don't u think that's great? working hard on something, even if you are in pain. isn't it going to be worth it when you know that you make someone happy? even if you don't know who that person might be..but isn't it great to know that someone felt thankful towards you.. ?

And now it's about me..hee...I hope to be those kind of people.. to put my heart into something, completing it in the very best way and hope that it will bring happiness to other people.. some might afraid that someday,they are going to be forgotten,I'm not excluded.. Sometimes,I think I tried too hard to make people notice me..because I want to be remembered.. but I think now, as long as I can do something that can brings happiness to lots of people,it wouldn't really matter anymore whether or not I am remembered.. Smile and laughters can change people's lives.. I want to be the reason for that smiles and laughters. How? I'm not sure myself for the time being..

I guess that is all..but before that, I want to thank everybody in this world for your contributions in order for others to be able to have fun at great venues, eat delicious foods and enjoy their life.. Do remember that. each and everyone of us are special.. such pain of us might give others happiness... so,try to do something that will bring lots of happy memories,okie? till I see you again.. take care everyone.. assalamualaikum..

p/s: If you were to choose between a thin cup with unattractive design and a slight crack and a thick,simple and white glass,which one will it be? It will be the glass right? then don't bother the cup anymore..

When I'm Ready, I Will Take One Step Further..

2012-01-05T12:04:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Anyeonghaseyo.. hello everyone.. Thanks for dropping by ya.. There is less than 3 days now before my first final exam paper.. I'm very very nervous right now.. huhu.. But then,I guess I should just do my very best.. Hwaiting!

Today,my post will be more about me,and I really just want to let it out of head.. It's nothing important really,so if you doesn't want to read it,it's fine.. I don't mind..hee.. Well,last year,it would be a lie if I say I never thought of having a relationship.. I thought about it a lot,more when I saw that most of my cousins seems to have someone special.. haha..

However,when there are chances that came knocking, I tend to always let it go.. and when people around me asked for the reason why,I will give them so many excuses.. now that I think really really hard on it, I realise that I was just making all those excuses up to run away from the fact that I am nowhere near ready to take that one step forward.. There are people out there who might felt the same way as I did,right? I know there are...hee..

I guess deep down inside I am still too afraid.. so,it's like I keep on standing at one spot and never go anywhere,too afraid that once I begin to walk,I will get lost and can't find my way back..that's exactly how I felt..owh..btw,I found this quote and I believe that someday that day will come..

"Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there, because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't. But then one day you feel something else. Something that feels wrong only because it's so unfamiliar, and in that moment you realize you're happy." - One Tree Hill

And this other quote,if we really believe that true love exist in this world, then we might find them in the most unexpected way, it will come to us,only when is still unknown..

Sometimes,people leave us in order for us to find someone better. Someone who we deserve and who deserve our love. Even if you lost a love once,don't lose hope because your true love will always find its way to you no matter what..

So, I think that I should really take my time.. I mean despite of the fact that ya,I want to feel that feeling again,but it's best not to if I know that I'm not ready.. this is a promise to myself.. that once I'm ready, I will take that one step forward.. I will give myself a chance to experience it one more time,and hopefully when that time come, I will choose the right one..

That's all everybody.. another post will be coming up..hee.. so,people..if you have the same situation as I do, take your time.. being single isn't that bad.. It is fun in some ways.. heee.. take care.. assalamualaikum.. Saranghae..^_^

Different People,Different Ways..

2012-01-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello to all readers..^_^ Have a great day today? I spent mine at the library but apparently even a change in the place of study wasn't able to really make me focus..huhu.. I'm gonna try really hard tonight.. because the exam is getting nearer by now..

Oh well, I'll just finish up this one post and then I'll study okie?What is my topic for tonight? hhmm.. actually it is pretty much about our ways in treating people around us.. I came up with this topic was because I felt it myself.. This is not something that I made up, there are times where I questioned myself about it.. I'm not sure if any of you did,but I'll share with you what I felt okie?

I am loved.but why can't I make that love entirely mine? People do care about me, but why not to the point that they will be able to notice that there's something wrong when I suddenly being cold? Some do remember things about me, but why don't they do something for me,to make me feel that? I try so hard to be noticed,but why do I felt like it will be the same,no matter when I'm there or not? They do love me,they do care about me, but why do I always felt like it wasn't enough? Did I felt that way because I was hoping for something else from them?

Yeah..those are the questions.. To be honest, now I think that all of these questions are nonsense...seriously,they are.. And I can fully understand now.. why I should not feel or think that way.. One will always treat others differently.. Different people, different ways.. you can't treat everyone you know equally.. because there are those that you are close with,and those that you can't seem to be comfortable with..each and every people you know is different.. how is it possible to treat them in the same way,right?

There was a time when I was really offended and mad at my friends.. because I felt like they cared more about this one friend than me..but then,when I think about it again, probably even if they use the same way towards me, I might not like it.. so,it's better if they don't do it anyway..

why don't we think of it this way...? that whenever we didn't get what we want,it does not mean that we do not deserve it, but that we deserve so much more than just that.. now,I do believe in this.. after I try to open up my eyes and realize small things,even a short SMS means a lot more than big ones.. it is the thoughts that really counts people.. hee..

So,I'm going to accept everything and not expect too much anymore.. I should be grateful actually,that I do have people who loves me and cares about me.. I'm lucky enough to still have family and friends by my side,why should I ask for more when some don't even have family ever since they are born.. I should be happy.. and trust everyone I love with all my heart..

So,remember, every people have different ways in showing their love towards us..as long as we are loved,that's good enough.. I've heard this one saying before,'when you don't have friends and love in your life,it's like you are just waiting for death to come'.. lifeis meaningless without family,friends and love that binds us all..

Till here for now.. take care.. assalamualaikum ^______^

너에게 난 나에게 넌 (You To Me.. I'm To You...)

2011-12-31T19:24:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hello everybody... it is the last day of 2011.. a year had passed and now it is time to welcome the new year.. did you have a lot of great memories this year? or sad ones? well.. whichever it is, it sure taught us a lot isn't it? and we become a better person because of it.. so,to welcome the new year of 2012, I would like to dedicate this song to all of you.. It should be playing now if your internet connection is okay.. hee.. if not,then wait for it okay? because it is such a nice song.. eventhough it is in korean which some can't understand,but the music is great.. and the translations is shown below..but i'm not so sure whether it is correct though.. since my korean is also not that good..huhu..

Translations
You To Me, I am To You..

To you, I am like the sun which sets
The beautiful memories are all from one place
Precious memories of the naive days together
Woo- they remain as a picture which has no regrets

To me, you make the lonely times pass
You are the sunlight which shines on me
Your small white hand in mine
Like the sparkle of a jewel it makes the promise of eternity

To me, you are like a sad graduation song
You are still a small part of this heart of mine
Your beauty glitters in your eyes
Like so many stars, I hope you will always shine

A sweet song isn't it? You can dedicate this to anyone you think special to you.. as for me, I really do hope that throughout this one year,at least someone will think of me as a special person even if I'm in that person life for a short time.. I hope I become a good memory to people around me.. and that they never regret knowing me.. that is what I wish for the last day.. I wish that even if I don't know whoever that might be, I really did bring happiness in someone's life, that I did make one person smile because of me..and someone did felt grateful of knowing me..that's all I wish for.. at least then will I know my life is actually worth living for..

I dedicate this song to everyone I know and to everyone that knows me... all of you are special in your own way.. I'm grateful to have all of you in my life.. and I will keep everything that happened this year as beautiful memories..May all of us will have more good memories this coming new year...

Happy New Year everybody.. take care.. assalamualaikum.. :)

p/s: even if you think no one really care about you, just have faith.. there are someone somewhere...

Love and Coughs...

2011-12-30T21:24:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everybody.. guess I really can't get my fingers off the keyboard today..haha.. sorry.. Well, it's just that I was watching a Korean reality show just now and I found this.. it's a proverb if I'm not mistaken.. if I'm wrong,sorry ya.. but.. let us all think about it.. what do love and coughs have in common?

Anyone? any answer? pretty simple actually..

Love and Coughs Can Never Be Hidden..

think about it.. it's true,isn't it? you can never hide your coughs.. it's hard if you need to find some place where there's no one just to cough, right? so,you will end coughing anywhere..you can't stop it from happening.. so,people around you will know that you are sick..

Love uses the same principle.. trying to hide it will only make it so obvious.. no matter how you try not to show it, your eyes will sparkle when you see that person,you will unknowingly smile to yourself, your attention will not be on anything else but that person and some will usually blush when they hear that person's name...seriously, there's no way you can hide that you are attracted to someone.. people around you will know instantly.. that you have fallen for that person..

So,stop hiding.. if you are sick,you're sick.. if you're in love,so be it.. there's no point on trying hard to hide it.. I'm not saying that you should announce it to the whole world but at least,stop lying to yourself.. admit it.. say to yourself, ' aa,I think I am sick' or 'aa,I think I do like him', then it won't hurt so much anymore..you won't feel tired anymore.. just go on with it..sick? find remedies.. in love? if you are brave enough,then confess.. if not, then just wish that person will be happy..

guess that is all from me.. Whatever it is, whether you are having coughs or are falling in love, I wish all of you a good health and happiness in life.. take care.. assalamualaikum ^_^

Petua Belajar..

2011-12-30T19:18:00.002+08:00

- credit to : http://puspanita.motour.gov.my/panduanmotivasi/87-motivasi-belajar.html

Berikut merupakan petua-petua dan ciri-ciri yang ada pada pelajar cemerlang, dari Dr Fadzilah Kamsah. Pelajar cemerlang akan:

1. Menggunakan kedua-dua belah otak kanan & kiri. Ini dapat dilakukan dengan membuat aktiviti merangsang kedua-dua belah otak tersebut.

2. Merangsang kesemua deria dalam pembelajaran. Kajian menunjukkan bahawa:

1. kita ingat 10 % apayang dibaca
2. kita ingat 20% apa yang didengar
3. kita ingat 50 % apa yang didengar & dilihat
4. kita ingat 70% apa yang dicakapkan
5. kita ingat 90% setelah dipraktikkan

3. Belajar secara aktif dengan pen/pensil ditangan.

4. Belajar 3 jam sehari atau 20 jam seminggu (tidak termasuk kerja rumah).

5. Belajar dalam persekitaran kondusif.
1. pastikan cahaya adalah terang
2. kurangkan gangguan bunyi
3. tampal poster yang mengandungi slogan yang menaikkan semangat belajar
4. tampal gambar-gambar yang menenangkan fikiran
5. kerusi dan meja menghadap kiblat
6. jangan lupa untuk senyum

6. Tidak ponteng kelas. Kalau tertinggal kelas, salin nota dari rakan.

7. Mengulang kaji menggunakan kaedah 'output learning' iaitu belajar untuk melatih otak menggunakan maklumat yang terkumpul. Ini dapat dilakukan dengan membaca buku/nota, ingat kembali, lakar/tulis, sebut apa yang difahami, dan jawab soalan.

8. Tahu teknik merangsang memori:

1. memasukkan maklumat dalam memori (registration)
2. menyimpan maklumat dalam sel memori (retention)
3. mengingat kembali (recall)
4. menggunakan maklumat untuk menjawab soalan atau kegunaan lain (application)

9. Sentiasa awal dan mendahului:

1. persediaan awal akan memberikan permulaan yang baik dan memberi tanggapan yang positif pada guru.
2. pelajar yang mendapat A pada ujian lazimnya akan dapat mengekalkan kejayaannya.
3. belajar awal ketika tiada tekanan adalah tidak membosankan.
4. untuk sentiasa awal dan mendahului, bacalah dahulu sekali atau 2 kali sebelum guru mengajar

10. Berbuat baik dengan guru. Setiasa hormati dan sayangi guru.

11. Mempunyai teknik membaca yang betul:
1. duduk dengan tegak & bernafas dengan betul
2. memberikan tumpuan sepanuhnya
3. menggunakan jari telunjuk untuk membaca
4. menyesuaikan kelajuan membaca dengan kesukaran bahan bacaan

12. Sentiasa mengawasi pencuri waktu belajar iaitu angan-angan kosong, bertangguh & malas.

13. Membaca doa penerang hati setiap kali selepas sembahyang, sebelum mengulangkaji, dan sebelum menghadapi peperiksaan.

14. Tidak membuang masa dengan belajar ketika letih.

15. Mengadakan rehat sebentar setiap 20 minit mengulangkaji.

16. Belajar mengikut waktu yang sesuai dengan diri (study according to your biological clock). Bagaimanapun, perlu tahu waktu-waktu yang sesuai untuk belajar iaitu sebelum tidur, selepas bangun tidur, selepas mandi air panas, selepas baca al-quran/zikir selepas riadah dan selepas berdoa.

17. Mengulang kaji secepat mungkin. Ulang kaji ringkas selepas belajar (kita akan lupa 80% selepas belajar).

18. Mengulang kaji secara bersendirian atau berkumpulan.

19. Tahu mengulang kaji adalah aktiviti pembelajaran terpenting sebelum peperiksaan.

20. Mengulang kaji pelajaran berulang-ulang kali.

21. Mengulang kaji apabila mulai terlupa.

22. Tahu petua mengulang kaji

1. cari tempat yang tenang dan serasi dengan jiwa kita
2. siapkan semua 'bekalan' dengan sempurna
3. duduk tegak dikerusi yang selesa
4. baca doa penerang hati
5. baca buku atau nota mengikut teknik membaca yang betul
6. fikir dan ingat kembali isi utama
7. catat/lakar
8. semak semula ketepatan maklumat
9. ulang sebut atau ceritakan pada orang lain
10. buat rumusan
11. jawab soalan
12. tampal maklumat yang rumit di dinding
13. baca doa tanda kesyukuran selepas belajar

23. Tahu memberi ganjaran kepada diri sendiri selepas beajar seperti membaca surat khabar, melawat rakan dan sebagainya.

24. Tahu petua-petua agar tidak lupa:
1. jangan makan kepala ikan
2. jangan makan organ dalaman
3. jangan minum semasa makan
4. jangan minum atau makan makanan yang tercemar oleh semut
5. jangan melihat kemaluan
6. jangan melihat buih
7. jangan membaca nama pada batu nisan
8. banyakkan makan makanan yang mengandungi soya seperti tempe, tauhu dan lain-lain
9. banyakkan makan kismis, kurma dan madu
10. banyakkan makan kekacang
11. pakai minyak wangi ketika belajar atau menghadapi peperiksaan
12. jangan makan sehingga terlalu kenyang
13. jangan kencing berdiri

25. Tahu kemahiran mengingat:
1. tampal nota-nota penting di dinding
2. tukar perkataan, ayat atau definisi dalam bentuk gambar atau rajah
3. gunakan kaedah akronim
4. reka cerita atau ayat mengenai konsep yang perlu diingat
5. pecahkan maklumat kepada kumpulan kecil

26. Cekap mengatur jadual belajar:
1. mempunyai jadual belajar
2. patuh kepada jadual
3. buat jadual yang boleh diikuti

27. Tidak menangguh belajar pada saat akhir dan tidak menumpukan peperiksaan sebagai dorongan untuk belajar.

28. Cari maklumat mengenai subjek yang tidak diketahui. Sediakan perkara-perkara yang tidak diketahui dan dapatkan penyelesaian dari orang yang lebih arif.

29. Membina kepelbagaian dalam pembelajaran. Sebagai contoh, satu hari dipelbagaikan cara dan topik untuk belajar.

30. Menggunakan masa terluang untuk mengulang kaji atau mencuri masa.

31. Membawa nota ke mana-mana sahaja (kecuali ke tandas).

32. Pelbagaikan tempat belajar.

33. Menyedari guru-guru adalah sumber ilmu yang baik. Tanya guru apabila tidak faham

34. Menjadikan nota-nota menarik seperti membuat corak, menggariskan isi penting dan sebagainya.

35. Ciri-ciri pelajar cemerlang:
1. taat kepada Allah
2. mendirikan sembahyang
3. menghormati kedua ibu bapa dan sentiasa mendoakan mereka
4. hormati & sayangi guru
5. bersungguh-sungguh dalam melakukan kerja untuk mencapai kecemerlangan.
6. suka pada setiap mata pelajaran yang dipelajari
7. membantu rakan yang memerlukan
8. berdoa dan bersyukur kepada Allah
9. sentiasa bertawakal
10. mahir dalam setiap mata pelajaran

My List of Favourite Songz.. ^_^

2011-12-30T11:56:00.002+08:00

Just asking you to listen to these two songs.. it's sad song of course,saya kan jiwang.. haha..kidding.. but these two songs are great songs.. kalau rasa2 nak layan perasaan tu,dgrla dua lagu ni ye.. hee..

i'm trying to find fun songs but couldn't think of any.. hee..but i guess this one will do..

that is all.. hope you like my choice of songs.. haha.. take care.. assalamualaikum

Cinta Tanpa Restu Umpama Jasad Tanpa Nyawa..

2011-12-30T11:03:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hai everyone..tak boleh berhenti nampaknya bila dah start update blog ni..xpela.. sekali sekala kan,bkn selalu.. rasanya sapa2 yang tengok drama Mealyu,mesti tahu dari mana la Zahra dapat ayat ni kan.. ? haaa..tepat sekali,dari drama Tentang Dhia yang dah pun tamat semalam.. dengan ending yang wow.. sehidup semati gitu..hee..suka2.. :P

Tapi ye la,dalam banyak2 ayat,ayat ni jugalah ramai yang ingat... Cinta tanpa restu umpama jasad tanpa nyawa.. well,rasenye sekrg da bleh kot nak bercerita tentang perkara mcm ni,dah dewasa kn.. haha.. tapi betullah ape kate ayat tu.. walau macam mana kuat sekalipun cinta kita pada seseorang,restu keluarga tu sangat2 penting... kalau tak,penghujungnya nanti mesti tak bahagia..so apa-apapun,sambil memikat hati orang,pikatlah hati keluarganya sekali..

samalah jugak kalau nak ajak anak dara orang keluar,tak reti-reti ke nak minta kebenaran mak ngan ayah die dulu? anak orang tu,bkn anak kucing.. hehe... kaum adam sepatutnya jadi lebih gentleman la dlm hal2 ni.. mereka yang kena lebih tunjukkan effort untuk dptkn restu dr kedua-dua belah pihak.. hee.. pandainya saya berbicara.. maaf yew..:p

Cinta tanpa restu,jasad tanpa nyawa,samalah macam hidup yang kosong..ada tapi tak lengkap.. gembira tapi tak bahagia.. kalau boleh, kita nak la bahagia selalu kan..? so pastikanlah ada restu dari keluarga okie? and ketahuilah sesungguhnya tak salah kalau kite dengar pndapat parents kite.. honestly, bila parents da kate ' mcm xbgus je die ni',maknanye betullah tu.. walau mcm manapn kite perthnkn,kebnrnnya nanti ttp sprti mane yg parents kite jangka.. so, pndapat parents sgt2 penting.. tapi kalau dpt yang mcm dlm cerita Tentang Dhia tu,lainlah plak kn.. dpt menantu bagus,benci lak.. pening2.. haha..xpela,itu sekdr cerita kn.. dunia realiti sekrg ni yg penting..so,ini kira peringatan untk semua dan diri sendiri gak la..:)

Guess this is the end of my post.. moga dpt sedikit manfaat daripadanya.. have a great day.. assalamualaikum..

~ Cinta tak semestinya memiliki..Cinta sejati adalah apabila kita gembira melihat insan yang kita cintai bahagia.. ~
" When love goes away, another love comes again. It definitely will.Even if it hurts now, it will heal a little later.It will forget. I will too."(CN BLUE- I Will Forget You)

20 Years Old Maknae..^_^

2011-12-30T10:33:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everybody.. Guess I should just keep on updating my blog for today.. despite of the fact that I should be studying instead.. aigooo..haha.. oh well,I'll make an exception for today..hee.. the title,please don't get me wrong ya.. today is not my birthday.. my birthday was on the 21st so ya,a bit late to post anything about it.. but still,I'll let my fingers type whatever they want to.. haha.. 20 years old.. I'm a pretty excited about it really.. because it's like the beginning of new things.. it's like now I felt like 'ah,I am an adult already,so no more playing around'.. haha.. I have to be more serious..in everything..

Unfortunately, since my birthday was during weekdays and I'm here studying, there was no celebration or at least eating out with family.. but i'm touched when friends sang birthday songs to me..in 5 different languages.. haha.. thanks guys..appreciate it so much..

From my point of view, 20 represents a new life.. a new beginning.. but then in reality,even before my birthday, I think I have changed quite a lot.. so much that I'm getting used to the new me.. It seems like I really let go of the old me.. but of course,there are times where I went back to the old me.. It's still part of me anyway,I can't just throw it away,can I? hee.. so,my wish for this new year is to achieve more success and to be happier than ever..

I have been great lately.. happier I mean.. housemates,friends,family,everyone around me really give me lots of strength.. but of course there are holes inside that I can't really lie about them to myself.. I felt it once awhile but I decided not to think too much about it.. sooner or later,everything will become better.. but at least now, I think my life is almost complete.. :)
Oh by the way,maybe some are wondering what is maknae.. maknae is a korean word that means youngest.. hee..since I am the youngest between my classmates and also my housemates, I like to call myself that.. it's great having a lot of brothers and sisters.. :P

So, since tomorrow will be the last day of 2011, have any of you think of what you want to change in 2012? any new goals? i hope you do.. everyone should have goals.. and for everyone that are born in December and had turned 20 this year or will be turning 20 tomorrow..

May you achieve success in everything you do and always be happy... may your wishes come true as well.. take care everyone.. that's all for now.. take care..assalamualaikum..^_^

Study Week means Exam is Just Around The Corner..

2011-12-30T10:15:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hai everybody..wooo,it;s been too long since I last updated this blog,isn't it? Nevertheless, there are still people who visited my blog and I really thank all of you for the compliments...I'm so sorry for not updating, maybe eventhough my blog wasn't being followed by lots of people, but at least some of my friends did ask me why I never post anything..so, I am taking this time now to make it up to them.. heee.. forgive me okie?

To be honest, during that period where I didn't update anything, I was really busy.. Too many things to do.. There was even a moment where I have to go to Sarawak on Thursday and fly back to KL on Sunday.. so, I have some classes that I missed and I have to learn everything by myself.. u get what i mean right? There's even a shooting for arabic class.. it's tiring really..huhu

Well,now is the study week for all of us.. And everyone know what that means.. it means exam is just around the corner,very near indeed.. too be honest, I think throughout this semester,there wasn't really a moment where I think I'm not drowning.. This third semester sure is different than any other semester and it really did make you feel as if you are drowning and you have to keep on trying to maintain yourself at the surface.. haha.. at least that is what I felt.. i don;t know the others though..

But now,I really want to work hard and get better results.. please pray for me as well.. :) and i want to say good luck to everyone who are going to sit for their final exam..all the best ya.. lets pass with flying colours.. ^_^

guess that is all for now.. hee.. I'm gonna post something else after this,I think.. suddenly,my mind is fulled of ideas.. haha.. take care everybody.. have a great day.. study smart ya, not hard.. love all of you.. assalamualaikum.. bye2...^_^

p/s: boposhipeoseo,chingu ya...

40 Tip Bahagia,Gembira,Damai..

2011-11-08T00:36:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello again.. rajin pula nampaknya malam2 ni.. hehe.. tapi lama sangat dah nak share pasal ni, cuma tak berkesempatan.. sumber daripada majalah Nur.. ^_^

Minum banyak air,sekurang-kurangnya 8 gelas sehari..
Bersarapan bagaikan seorang raja,makan tengah hari bagaikan seorang putera dan makan malam umpama seorang pengemis
Lebihkan makanan daripada tumbuh-tumbuhan dan kurangkan ambil makanan yang diproses.
Hidup dengan prinsip 3E- Energy,Enthusiasm, Empathy..
Peruntukan masa untuk solat..
Lebihkan permainan yang mencabar minda
Banyak membaca buku. Lebih banyak daripada tahun lalu..
Duduk diam dan bertenang sekurang-kurangnya 10 minit setiap hari..
Tidur selama tujuh jam..
Ambil masa 10 hingga 30 minit untuk berjalan setiap hari.. Pastikan anda tersenyum ketika berjalan..
Jangan bandingkan diri anda dengan orang lain. Anda sebenarnya tidka tahu mengenai kehidupan orang lain.
Jangan buat anggapan negatif mengenai perkara yang bearada di luar kawalan anda..
Janganlah melakukan sesuatu berlebih-lebihan. Ketahuilah had anda.
Jangan terlalu memberikan tekanan kepada diri sendiri..
Jangan bazirkan masa berharga anda untuk bergosip..
Bina impian ketika anda masih berjaga,maka anda akan berusaha untuk merealisasikannya..
Cemburu adalah perkara yang membuang masa. Sedarlah bahawa anda sudah ada apa yang anda perlukan.
Lupakan kisah silam yang menyakitkan hati.Jangan ungkit kesilapan yang telah dilakukan oleh pasangan. Itu akan memusnahkan kebahagiaan anda sekarang..
Hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk anda bazirkan dengan menyakitkan hati orang lain. Jadi jangan membenci sesiapa pun..
Berdamailah dengan masa lalu anda,jadi anda tidak merosakkan masa sekarang anda..
Tidak ada orang lain yang boleh menggugat kegembiraan anda kecuali anda sendiri.
Ingatlah bahawa kehidupan ini adalah 'sekolah' dan di sini anda harus belajar..Masalah adalah sebahagian daripada kurikulum pembelajaran yang akan datang dan pergi,tetapi proses pembelajarannya berlangsung sepanjang hayat..
Banyakkan senyuman dan tertawa..
Anda tidak perlu memenangi semua perdebatan. Bersetujulah untuk tidak bersetuju..
Selalulah berhubungan dengan keluarga anda..
Berikan sesuatu yang baik pada orang lain setiap hari..
Maafkan semua orang atas segala-galanya..
Luangkan masa bersama orang yang berusia lebih 70 tahun dan yang berusia bawah enam tahun(ibu bapa,orang tua dan anak-anak yang masih kecil)
Setiap hari cubalah untuk buat sekurang-kurangnya tiga orang tersenyum..
Apa yang orang lain fikirkan mengenai anda,itu bukan masalah anda..
Kerjaya anda tidak akan menjaga anda ketika anda sakit.Sebaliknya keluarga dan rakan-rakan yang akan menjaga anda.. Oleh itu,selalulah ingat mereka..
Lakukan perkara yang betul..
Singkirkan semua yang tidak berguna,tidak cantik, dan yang tidak menggembirakan..
Ingatlah bahawa Allah akan menyembuhkan segala-galanya..
Apapun,samada perkara baik atau jahat,ia akan berubah..
Tak kira apa pun perasaan anda,bangunlah,bersiap dan bersedia..
Yakinlah,perkara yang baik pasti akan datang...
Apabila anda bangun pagi dan anda masih hidup,maka ucapkan Alhamdulillah..
Suara hati anda sentiasa inginkan kebahagian,kegembiraan dan kedamaian.Maka bergembiralah,carilah kebahagiaan dan ungkapkan kedamaian..
Samapaikan kebaikan(temasuk tip ini) kepada orang lain yang anda sayangi..

Setakat ini saja untuk kali ini.. Selamat malam.. semoga jumpa lagi.. assalmualaikum :)

p/s: I have been reading a book called Why do I make myself Unhappy.. those tips above is for me as well.. huhu.. I need to be a bright person in the future.. I'll let you know what that book is about when I'm done reading it,okie?

Raya di Perantauan.. T_T

2011-11-08T00:05:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum... Hai semua.. wow.. lama sangat2 rasanya tak update blog ni.. bukan setakat berhabuk blog ni,mungkin da dimakan anai2 da.. huhu,juz kidding..

First of all, even when I didn't update my blog,I still checks it sometimes especially the chatbox corner.. And I realized there are a lot of compliments given by other bloggers that visited this blog.. so,I want to thank all of them,sincerely from the bottom of your heart, Thank You So Much..^_^

Okay,back to the main story.. Nak share sikit tentang pengalaman diri menyambut hari raya Aidiladha tanpa keluarga di sisi.. walaupun ada cuti seminggu,bila difikir-fikirkan,lebih baik duduk je kat Shah Alam ni.. memandangkan banyak kerja yang perlu disiapkan dan banyak ulang kaji yang perlu dibuat,lebih baik ambil masa seminggu ni untuk siapkan semuanya,kan? apa2pun,saya sangat2 bertuah sebab walaupun kena duduk kat sini,saya ada kawan2 yang nasib sama dengan saya.. apa yang lebih menggembirakan ialah diorg adalah kwn2 saya masa kat sarawak dulu.. how nice to finally have the chance to meet them again.. huhu..

Untuk Hari Raya Aidiladha ni,kitaorang masak sendiri menu,dan ada jugak yang diberi oleh kawan kpd kawan sy tu.. terima kasih sangat2.. merasa la jugak kami makan lemang dan rendang hari raya ni.. dan,hasil daripada usaha sendiri kami berempat, jadilah :-

Banyak sangat sebenarnya,tapi kami hampir habiskan kesemuanya.. hehe.. seronok sangat.. sebab mungkin for the first time,kita rasa masakan cara Sarawak.. rindu sangat2.. walaupun masakan yang housemate slalu buat tu sedap,tapi mesti rasa ada lainnya bila masakan tu dimasak cara kita sndri kan?hee.. best la jugak raya haji tahun ni.. walaupun x betul2 beraya.. because of the fact that I actually got the chance to be with my friends after so many years,I am very very thankful..

Tapi,bohong kalau kata tak rindu nak sambut dengan family.. I called my mom to ask her how to cook a dish,and I swear that I really felt like crying.. I was trying so hard to control my voice and the tears as well.. hmmm.. I wonder,if I,who lives just a 2-hour flight from my family already felt that way, what was it like for those studying abroad? it must be very hard for them..oh well,since all of you went abroad to chase your dreams,I wish all the Malaysians students that are studying overseas the very best of luck.. Bear with all the challenges and make us proud,okie? Chaiyok2! hehe..

Guess that is all.. nothing special ttg post ni.. sekadar berkongsi cetera.. apa2pun,kepada semua sahabat tak kiralah dari Sabah atau Sarawak yang melanjutkan pengajian di negeri orang, cekalkan hati ye, anggap ia sebagai pengalaman yang mendewasakan.. semoga jumpa lagi.. Assalamualaikum :)

Born To Be Different..

2011-10-06T14:47:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hello everybody.. just a simple post for me today.. I'm kinda busy lately.. but before that,I would like to thank all of the bloggers that have visited my blog and even left comments at my chatbox.. thank you so much.. and to black that said " cakap melayu jela".. I'm sorry,I can't do that.. bukan nak mengagungkan bahasa luar dan mengetepikan bahasa ibunda,but you have to understand that I am really trying as hard as I can to master English since that everything in my course is being taught in English..but sure.. I will write in Malay once in awhile.. I will not forget my roots okie?

Okay.. have any of you ever feel like you don't belong? have you ever been in a situation where you felt so different than the rest of the people there? for example,you are the only one having a different opinion on a particular topic..? maybe sometimes,it is not actually a bad thing though.. it is a very good thing..to be the unique you.. it makes you feel special.. especially when people around you keep on complementing you for that...

born to be different is a good thing.. it's good if you achieve success in what you like,and when all your dreams come true.. and when you are well-known,it is a good thing if you enjoy the fame.. I sometimes felt that I am so different that others around me.. not in anything big like studies or achievements,obviously there are lots more whom are better than me... I mean my opinion,the way I see things,my behavior,that sort of things.. it sure is okay for me before since I am a loner,but when I really wanna try to open up a little bit more,to put my guards down,of course I am different than the others since I am not used to that certain situation..it takes time to adapt..

But then, I learnt about one thing.. when we are in a relationship or friendship,just like me who just started to live with friends, living together,knowing each other slowly as days passing by,it is a process of adjusting and changing one another.. so,if there's anything that need changes,we will all change together.. a process of adapting to a new life may not be easy,but you will become more mature in time..however..just a little advise.. being on top may be very great but it can also be the loneliest place ever.. so,make sure that you have friends and family or someone special that will be there for you all along the way..you gonna need them to catch you when you fall.. don't ever think that you are alone,because you are not alone unless you chose that yourself..

that's all for now.. take care everyone.. assalamualaikum...

~I have a book..it has a very nice cover.. but when I read it,I don't like the story..Then,someone recommended a new book to me.. However,the story is somehow similar to the old one.. So,all of this questions keep on popping up into my mind.. "should I try to like that new book?" "Should I change the story a little bit,adding in my own words so that I can like it?" no answer to any of that till now~

Two Types Of Happiness..

2011-10-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum..hola readers... how are you today? are you doing well?are you happy today? me..today is not a very happy day..i'm extremely tired.. huhu... but that wouldn't stop me from updating this blog though..

Okay,put that matter aside for now.. let me share with you what I got from one Korean Drama.. actually,this post was suppose to be written months ago,together with the should we hate ourselves post.. but then,I never have the chance to really put my idea on this topic.. not that it is hard to write,but there's no soul,no feelings of happiness during that time.. so,since I'm back being the happy-me(except for today,tiredness really kills my happiness), I thought why not I write about it now,right?

So,happy is a very nice feeling,a great feeling indeed right.. there are a lot of things that can make one happy.. one of them is love.. but,are there really two types of happiness? if yes,what are they then?

First type of happiness is when you look back and think that you were happy back then.. You realize you were happy after that event..sometimes,that event took part so many years ago and you didn't want to remember it for certain reasons.. but then,when you take some time to remember it,you said to yourself,"ah,despite of that incident,I was really happy during that time.."

The second type of happiness is when you realize you are happy at the present time.. this type of happiness is a very precious feeling.. because it will become a memory that you will remember forever..that will stay close to your heart at all times... a moment where you will definitely say," I'm very happy that day,how I wish I can go back in time and experience it just one more time.."

Regardless of whether it is the first or the second type of happiness,we should be making a lot of happy memories.. because despite of every hardships and challenges that you have to face,these happy memories,with your loved ones..are the reasons for you to keep on going.. the reason for you to keep on smiling and stay strong to the end.. here's a related quote that I wanna share with all of you..

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. ~ Maya Angelou

That's all for now.. take care everyone.. good night..assalamualaikum ^_^

~ fate.. just fate.. but it is still like using a gold spoon and a bronze fork together..it completes your needs but no matter how you try to arrange them side by side,they just don't look good together..~

Nukilan 28/09/2011

2011-09-28T19:22:00.003+08:00

Saat mentari kian meninggi,
Tinggallah aku termenung sendiri,
Merenung jauh ke dasar hati,
Menilai kemampuan diri ini..

Mampukah aku pertahankan jiwa,
Dari terleka oleh anganan rasa,
Mencari dan menanti yang tiada,
Yang kan hanya membawa duka..

Mampukah aku tersenyum gembira,
Tanpa ada masalah menimpa,
Takku daya menahan rasa,
Pabila perlu terus bersandiwara..

Mahuku bebas buat pilihan,
Mencorak sendiri warna kehidupan,
Namun rasa yang tak berkesudahan,
Menghentikan lakaran karya impian..

Start To Finish..

2011-09-26T17:25:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hai everyone.. waa... I thought I really can update this blog everyday but it doesn't seem that way.. with the lectures,assignments and homeworks,it is just impossible.. heee... by the way,for this post,I'm gonna write the rest of it in Malay okie.. I'll write in english at the very end though.. hope you wouldn't mind.. ^_^

Okie.. post ni bukanlah nak berkongsi fakta tetapi cuma ingin berkongsi pengalaman sepanjang berada di sini.. Sejujurnya,pada mulanya saya rase semua akan berjalan dengan lancar dan mudah.. tapi rupa-rupanya agak sukar jugak ye.. Apabila kita bersama teman2 tinggal dalam satu rumah yang sama,apabila jarak dari tmpat kediaman ke kelas semakin jauh,cabarannya terlalu banyak.. Sukar untuk kita menyesuaikan diri.. tapi kena juga tabah dan kuat dalam menempuhinya.. betul,hidup jauh daripada keluarga ni,kebebasan sentiasa ada..betul,jika ada yang mndapat biasiswa atau pinjaman,wang bukan lagi satu masalah.. pergilah ke mane saje,belilah ape sekalipun.. itu hak masing2.. kerna kita sudah punya akal yang cukup matang untuk membezakan baik dan buruknya sesuatu..

tapi,itu tak bermakna kite perlu ikut saja jejak langkah semua orang.. adakalanya,dalam sesetengah perkara,elok jika kita berpegang pada prinsip kita sendiri... tak perlu buang prinsip hanya untuk menjaga hati orang lain.. kerna prinsip seseorang itu berhak untuk dihormati.. setakat ini,Alhamdulillah,tidak ada peristiwa yang mengguris hati atau pun menyinggung perasaan berlaku..tidak tahu la pula jika ada yang menyimpan rasa tapi harap2nya tak ade la ye.. bagi saya,pengalaman ini bagaikan membawa saya ke memori yang lalu.. bila rakan2 sekelas perempuan di tingkatan 5 umpama kakak2 saya sendiri.. rindu rasanye bila teringat setiap pagi,saye akan bersalam dgn mereka semua..bestnye jadi adik bongsu..ramai kakak2 yang sayang.. hehe :) kat sini pun harap2 macam tu jugakla.. saya sayang dorng semua,semua dah mcm kakak2 sy sndri da..

Whatever it is,I started this journey with hope to finish it not only by graduating with flying colors but also by having an everlasting friendship with all my housemates and friends..I do hope that we will all finish this course together..^_^ that's all for now.. to anyone that are in the same situation as me,you know,renting a house and living there with friends,you know which one is good and bad for you.. the decision is in your hands.. you know who you are more than anyone will ever do..so,be yourself in everything.. you can change to become a better you but don't change because you wanna be like someone else..take care and have a great day.. assalamualaikum..

p/s: Today's monologue :- It's in analogue.. There is a human-made pond.. People who pass by keep on throwing a coin into it and make a wish,hoping that it will come true.. more and more coins were thrown into it as time passes by.. then,the water changes color,making it hard for others to see what's inside of the pond.. becomes very blurry..but one day, a person came to the pond,slowly picking up all the coins one by one..and none left behind.. at last,the water become as clear as crystals and it seems nice that way.. for cleaning up that pond,jeongmal kamsahabnida..^__^

Who Do You Think You Are?

2011-09-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

Who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars,
Collecting a jar of hearts,
and tearing love apart..

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone..I bet all of you know this song right? but for this post,only that part seems related to it...actually this post is for those people.. those who keeps on leaving scars to others and breaking other people's hearts...

It is not that I want to be involve in your personal life nor do I want to act like an angel who never hurt others... but this refers to those that are two-timing their partner..I mean come on,can't you stay loyal? at least if you ever want to be with someone else,then end the relationship that you have now first before you start a new one.. but then ada pulak yg dalam pada tgh ada krisis kew,nmpak sgt dgn terangnya,pengganti dah siap menanti..please.. don't play with people's hearts... that's not nice.. who do you think you are to have the right to do so?

If you ever found someone new,then end things nicely with the one you already have..put yourself in his or her shoes,what will you feel then if it happens to you?hate it right? feel betrayed..?then,think of the right thing to do instead of running around leaving scars and tearing love apart..

I don't think I should comment further about this topic so I'll end it here.. But I want everyone to remember that people may forget what you said but they'll never forget how you made them feel..If it involves good feeling then,it's okay.. but if it is otherwise,that is not good.. ni la antara punca kenape zaman2 moden macam ni pun,ada lagi orang guna cara halus.. bila hati dah sakit,hukum-hakam semua tolak tepi.. so,janganlah jadi macam tu ye.. tak salah mencari pasangan yang terbaik untuk diri sndiri,tapi cari lah satu demi satu.. janganlah pasang dua,tiga dalam masa yg sama..

Guess that's all.. don't ever think of collecting a jar of hearts okie?take care everybody.. stay loyal to your partner ya,if you have one.. i'll pray that you stay together forever.. take care.. good night.. assalamualaikum.. ^_^

Forgiveness Is...

2011-09-19T22:58:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello readers.. I have been trying to type something a few hours earlier but I don't know why I'm just so lazy right now.. haha..probably because it is weekend huh?

I am going to make a very simple and short one for this post since a few others are coming next.. I heard this quote somewhere and from my point of view,it is absolutely correct..a quote on forgiveness...since we are still in the month of Syawal,I believe we did asked for forgiveness from everyone we know when we meet them right? it is a month to forgive and forget,to start over and open a new book.. agree?So,there are moments in our lives that we asked ourselves this question..

Thus,whenever this question pops out,I hope all of you will remember this quote..

"Forgiveness is giving up hope that the past could be any different"

Stop saying or thinking,'if only I didn't do this,then I will not get hurt or bla3'.. If any of you did this,stop it.. You must realize that until you have giving up on those hope of yours that you will be able to let go and move on..give up on all the things you dreamed for your past,because it is still the past..you can't change it anyway so why hold on to it?let it go.. accept the fact that things could never be any different and just move on with the present and start thinking of the future instead..Forgiveness is the only way for you to set yourself free from the past..

However,forgiving someone does not mean that you accept every fault that was done nor does it mean you think it is okay for someone to treat you or to hurt you in some way..forgiving that person doesn't have to mean that you want that person to be in your life again.. but it is just for both of you to let go of any lingering feelings,any remorse and able to finally open a new book..

Guess that is all for now.. to make it simple for you to understand..to forgive is like to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner is you.. you will only hurt yourself more if you keep all those lingering feelings inside.. forgive and forget.. that is what's best...till I see you again in next post..take care everybody.. Assalamualaikum.. ^_^

p/s: this is the secret to my happiness.. hope it will become yours too..^_^
p/s: half of this was written on 17/09,that's why i mentioned weekend..

Kisah Dongeng..

2011-09-17T08:36:00.002+08:00

Lirik Lagu Stacy – Kisah Dongeng

Ku sedar ku tak seberapa
Jika dibanding mereka
Yang jauh lebih megah dari diri ini

Apa yang mampu ku berhias
Hanyalah hati yang ikhlas
Terpendam simpan untuk dia yang sudi

(korus)
Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa
Dalam waktu sedu
Dalam waktu hiba
Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Sanggup menerima insan tak sempurna
Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya
Kisah dongeng saja

Belum pernah ku merasakan
Dipeluk dalam dakapan
Eratnya melindungi jiwa rapuh ini

Sanubariku memerlukan
Kehadiran seorang teman
Tulus mencurah kasih sepenuh hati

(ulang korus)

Is it true that this kind of love is really just exist in fairytale? only time will tell.. till I found someone to love,this remain as a question without any definite answer.. but even if I wasn't the one to have such love story,i hope my readers will have it in their lives... take care..till next post,assalamualaikum.. have a great day ya ^__________^

Just Hanging On..

2011-09-16T18:25:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everybody..Finally have the chance to write something here.. but before I continue on,I wanna wish all Malaysians.. Happy Malaysia Day! It is holiday today,so hope that each and everyone of you will have a great day..

This post doesn't contain any interesting info though.. just me and my own monologue.. finally the first week will soon come to an end.. it is such a great but tiring week.. Living here with housemates,going to classes either by walking,bus or car,joining my classmates to Summit and Mydin Subang..this week was really packed.. and we already have assignments.. huhu..

So far,all I can say is I'm just hanging on...just hanging in there.. not knowing whether or not everything will turns out okay.. but this semester is going to be a different experience for me..a whole new world again.. a lot more things to think,forcing me to leave my child-like behavior and mature even more..does any of you going through the same thing? if you do,then let's just be strong in facing all of the challenges,okie?

I guess that is all for.. remember everyday,when things got tough,when you felt like your world went dark,just hang in there.. if you are strong and patient enough,you will find the light..and you will learn something in the end.. take care everyday.. have a great evening.. love you always.. assalamualaikum..

P/s: People's perceptions is tiring enough.. Mildang only lead to maximum exhaustion..I hope it will stop someday.. (Mildang-push and pull)

When A Girl Ask for Breakup..

2011-09-14T10:10:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Anyeonghaseyo!..It means hello but I think most of you know that right? hee.. Hhmm.. this post won't be very long,I hope.. It's just a guide for guys when dealing with this kind of situation..when your girlfriend ask for breakup without any reasons..when you are sure that you have done nothing wrong that upsets her,then there could only be two reasons behind her action..of course,I can't say that this is 100 percent true but sometimes,it sure is..

The first reason is the girl really don't love you anymore and she really really wants to end that relationship.. She doesn't feel the same way you feel for her.. and most probably she has found someone else...someone she feels a lot more comfortable with,someone that suits her better than you..

The second reason is she just wants to check her feelings for you or she just wants to check how much you really love her..it could be because her heart wavered or for some reason,she thinks that your heart wavered.. so,the only reason she asked for that is only to confirm how both of you feel for one another..

How to determine whether it is the first or the second reason? well.. if she walks away after saying that,then it is the first one.. but if she stays and waits to see your reaction,then it is probably the second reason..so,if she does stays there,do try to convince her that you really love her.. start a heart to heart discussion and sort things out.. and hopefully,the two of you can work things out again.. and the relationship may become stronger than ever..

But if you are in the first situation,the situation where she doesn't want to be with you anymore,then just let her go.. since you can't make her happy,let her be happy with someone else.. and you will found someone much better than her...

Guess that is all for now.. I have a very little time left before my class starts.. so,till next post,have a great day.. and remember,breakup does hurt,but it teaches us to be strong and by going through it,we will find out whether or not we are able to live our life alone and be independent... love you all.. thanks for your time.. anyeoongg! assalamualaikum..

Bad Sleeping Habits..

2011-09-13T13:32:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum..Hello everybody.. It has been a while, isn’t it? I have a lot of ideas actually but never have the chance to write.. plus, I have become quite lazy to type anything.. But,I’m trying to change that..hee… So now,a simple question for all of you.. Do you like to sleep? Haha.. of course the answer will be yes,right? Some even said that sleeping is one of their hobbies… However,there are a few sleeping habits that you should avoid from doing..because it really is bad for you.. so, if you think some of these is your sleeping habits ,a piece of advice, change it.. What are those habits?

1) Sleep sitting down without any pillow or cushion supporting your neck..

2) Letting someone to sleep on your arm for the whole night..

3) Sleep on your arm(Students always do this when they are studying)

4) Sleep with your mouth open…

All of this habits will seriously cause major health problems later on if you keep on doing it..I can’t really explain about it since this information was from a TV show.. but I do remember that the first three habits might cause paralysis and the last one, your teeth and gums will face serious disease.. can’t remember the name though.. sorry.. :(

Then, if all of these are bad, what is the good position to sleep? It is called the soldier position.. it is the position where you lie down straight like in this picture below..

And if you want to sleep while sitting down,you must sleep like this..

I guess that is all for now.. Just want to share this info with all of you.. I hope that it will be beneficial.. hee.. so,sleep well,stay healthy and always feel refresh when you wake up,okie?Take care everybody.. assalamualaikum…

First Day : All Eyes On Us..@_@

2011-09-12T23:29:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum... Hello.. just a simple post for today..cuz it's getting really late and I have class early in the morning tomorrow.. so.. what is this post about? well.. look at the picture below and you'll understand why I said all eyes was on us today.. It was an interesting day..a day that I want to remember.. since it was also the first day of semester 3.. A lot of things happened today.. for instance,we will be taught by new lecturers for 2 subjects.. and those two lecturers were from Iran and Iraq.. Eventhough I can't really understand just yet,but I believe that this semester is going to be very interesting and challenging...I'm looking forward to it.. hehe ^______^..

Seven EH2233B Girls..same outfits..

I did learned one thing today.. just do what you think is right for you.. don't ever care about what people might think or say.. as long as what you did is not a crime,then just go on with it.. just like what we did today.. we even went to Summit,shopping complex in Subang wearing that baju kurung.. everybody were trying to guess where do we come from and why did we wear the same outfits.. it was great.. some were really funny assumptions.. huhu...the true reason? it is designated to be our official baju kurung for our class.. i believe the guys will follow our footsteps after this.. but then,on second thought,maybe not.. haha..

Guess that is all for now.. good night.. sweet dreams.. love you all..thanks for reading..assalamualaikum..:)

Kembali ke Dunia Ceritera..

2011-09-11T21:46:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum...Hai my readers..wow.. lamanye blog ni tak berupdate.. lebih dari sebulan.. ish3.. I'm very very sorry.. masa tidak mengizinkan sy untk berada di dpn laptop dan mencurahkan idea yg ada kat kepala ni.. dah banyak sangat da sampaikan da lupa2 idea yang lama2..

tetapi,seblum saya meneruskan dengan ceritera2 yang ingin sy kongsikan dgn anda,harap2 xlah terlambat sangat untuk ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri dan Maaf Zahir dan Batin kepada semua yang mengenali diri ini tidak kiralah secara realiti atau di alam maya ini.. maaf sgt2 la ea sbb x wish awal2.. maklum sajela tahun ini kami sekeluarga beraya kat Sarikei dan Kuching,Sarawak.. bila dah jarang balik,mmg xde masa la nak online.. sibuk luangkan masa dengan saudara mara..tapi memang worth it la balik sarawak tahun ni.. walaupun banyak pahit dan manis,suka dan duka,tawa dan air mata,semuanya memberi banyak pengajaran kepada diri ini untuk berfikir lebih matang dan terbuka..

sekarang ini,saya telah pun selamat berada di Shah Alam dan memulakan kehidupan baru di sini..seiring dengan bermulanya tahun kedua meneruskan pengajian setelah 4 bulan bercuti.. huhu.. rasa juga nervous ni.. moga2 hati ini bisa tabah dan diri ini cukup kuat untuk menempuh segala2nya..

Mungkin malam ini saya tidak berkesempatan untuk menaip post yang setrusnya kerana esok sudah bermulanya kuliah dan tutorial..so,izinkan saya mengundur diri buat masa ini..insyaAllah.. mulai esok,blog ini akan diupdate kan selalu.. kepada yang sudi mengikuti dan membacanya,thank you so much.. wait for the next post okie? take care.. assalamualaikum..

Salam Ramadhan buat semua..

2011-08-03T23:00:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello to all my readers.. Maaflah ye,lambat nak wish.. busy sangat dan malas sangat nak menaip ni..apa-apapun,kepada yang ada hntr sms wish selamat berpuasa tu,thanks ea.. thanks sangat2.. and walaupun dah nak masuk hari keempat kita berpuasa,terimala salam ramadhan dari saya.. mungkin selepas dari hari ini,saya akan kembali jarang mengupdate blog.. so,saya memohon maaf terlebih dahulu sebab semmgnya sy tak ada kesempatan dan juga kekurangan idea2 untuk dikongsikan.. kepada yang ada menghantarkan komen kat chatbox tu,thank you so much.. really appreciate it..

Once again,kepada semua umat Islam tidak kira di mana pun anda berada,selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan,selamat berpuasa dan semoga kita semua tidak rambang mata apabila membeli di bazar yee.. nanti beli banyak2 pun,bukan habis.. membazir jew.. semoga kita semua mampu mengawal nafsu masing2 di bulan yang mulia ini..

Sampai di sini saja post untuk kali ini.. jangan lupa bangun sahur ye.. nanti kalau tak sahur,takut gastrik plak bila berpuasa.. take care everybody.. assalamualaikum..

Acne,,How Troublesome..

2011-07-13T14:30:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone., I'm back with a few topics to share.. However,most of my post will be quite short.. since I am always at home during the holiday,I watched a lot of TV shows..some of them are really beneficial to watch.. so,I have something to share about acne.. everybody know what that is right? and i wanna share with you the reasons of why we get acne at certain positions..

Forehead - This means that either your heart or your lungs are not in good health..

Cheek- It means that you have digestion problem.. your stomach is in chaos.. which also means that you have to stop or reduce oily and unhealthy foods..

Nose and Chin - Your hormones are currently not in balance..usually happens to girls during PMS.. hehe..

Jaw area - it means that you really need to take care about your health a bit more.. your inside are not in good condition..

Chest- this means that you are very stressed out.. which indicates that you should really take a break and get some rest physically and mentally...

To conclude everything in one sentence, when there's acne,it means that something is going on in your body and it needs to be fix as soon as possible.. when there is too many of it,then there's chaos in there..huhu..

so,for those who have oily or sensitive skin like myself,we should really take good care of our skin and our face.. I am trying to make some changes right now.. but obviously it wasn't easy.. especially when we doesn't really care whether the food we eat is healthy or not..hehe.. but all of the attentions that we put in taking care of our face and skin is actually very worth it especially when we take care of it from the inside.. when our inside is in great condition,it will shows on the outside.. so,gives extra care on your inside first,okie?

By the way,Vitamin A,C and E is very important for healthy skin.. that is all for now.. hope this post is useful to all of you.. credit to Vitamin(KBS World) for this information..take care everyone.. assalamualaikum..

Check It Out..Interesting Facts...

2011-06-27T21:52:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hola! Anyeonghaseyo! For this post,I have some interesting facts that I want to share with all you.. However, I'm sorry if any of you already know about all of these facts.. I found out about it a couple of weeks ago,so I can't quite remember all the details.. All of the facts are from a Korea variety show named Win Win.. I'm not quite sure who is the guest but I'm pretty sure that he is a professor and a writer that is very very good in giving some guidance to couples,married couples especially in building a healthy and long-lasting relationship.. So,most of the facts here are suitable for everyone,because everyone is gonna get married right? and there are also some facts on babies..very useful for me of course.. hehe.. hope you will find them interesting too and do tell me your opinion if you have any,okie? Btw,I'm gonna use both malay and english ya..

1) Babies don't think with their brain.. They think with their skin.. It means that the way to stimulate the brain is to let the baby to touch as many things as he or she can.. lbih kurang macam tu la cara bayi belajar tentang perkara2 kat sekeliling dia..semakin banyak benda yang bayi tu sentuh,semakin cepatlah perkembangan minda bayi tu.. sbb tu la,walaupun kadang-kadang budak2 ni suka main tanah,yang kotor2 tu..kita jgn larang terus,bagilah main,jgn makan tanah dah la kan.. hehe.. lagipun,kalau terlampau bersih sangat pun x boleh,ada gak penyakit akan datang kalau kita terlalu sangat menjaga kebersihan..

2) We have natural mirror nerves..which means when someone smiles or waves at us,we will unconsciously smile or wave back..

3)There is an old married couple. Why is it when the wife die,the husband will usually die 6 months later but when the husband died first,the wife can still live for 3 to 4 years or sometimes even more than that? That is because the wife touches a lot more things in her daily activities.. cooking,cleaning,knitting.. she's able to distract herself from the sadness by doing other things.. tetapi kaum lelaki memerlukan isteri untuk buat semua kerja tu untuk diorang.. so,diorang asyik la sedih2 kan.. tapi kalau husband tu hidup lebih lama dari yang dijangka,maknanya da ada pengganti la tu.. hehe..

4)People who talks a lot actually feels lonely easily..That is why they need to express themselves all the time.. They need someone to be there for them so that they can always have someone to share feelings and opinions with..sebab tu la orang yang banyak cakp susah nak berhenti.. sebab nanti dia rasa sunyi... sbb xde tmpat nak luahkan apa yg diorg rasa..

5) For babies to grow up healthily,we must always tell them good things.. always compliment them and give encouragement.. so that the baby will have more determination on growing up and be a great person..

6) Why is it that pretty girls,I mean really2 pretty girls stay alone and could not find their soulmates..? and then we wonder why the average-looking girls can be happily married and when their husbands do have looks,we think that he should picked one of the pretty girls instead..want the answer?

Well,tak seronokla kalau semua pun bagitau kat sini kan..so,kalau nak tau jawapannya dan nak tau lagi banyak tips2 dalam berpasangan..tgk la Tv show ni kat link yg sy bg k.. watch it and I promise that you'll never regret it.. because it is very2 educational.. okie?

Win Win

Please watch it.. it is a very good show.. guess that is all from me for now.. take care everyone.. hope you will learn a lot from this show..good night.. assalamualaikum.. anyeongg..^______^

Woman with 20 personalities...

2011-06-25T22:17:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone.. How are you? hope that all of you are doing just fine.. for those who are in semester break like me,are you bored already? haha.. cause I do.. haha.. well,no matter how much we like to stay at home,relax and do nothing, a teenager is still a teenager.. going out,hanging out with friends are things that we would very much like to do during holidays right? so,I do hope I can hang out with my friends soon enough..huhu..

Woman with 20 personalities? How can that be? Is it an act? I watched the Oprah show a few weeks ago and the topic was on this matter.. It is about those who suffered a personality disorder.. Often happened to those who were repeatedly abused during their childhood years and growing up by creating a lot of personalities that will keep on denying the fact that she or he is the victim..experts said that it is a way for our mind to protect itself..

Honestly,I am very interesting in matters related to our brain.. When I dreamed of becoming a doctor,it wasn't because of I want to operate people or prescribe medicines.. It is because I want to know more about the human brain.. become a psychologist.. trying to understand what exactly the reasons that can triggered this kind of disorder.. We might think that they are just pretending..you know,acting.. changing from a personality to another with them being aware of everything that they are doing.. But in this kind of situation,they don't..they don't remember anything.. a personality will not know who the other personalities are or what the other personalities did...

That is what happen to this woman.. she has a daughter and I really pity her.. having 20 'people' in her life.. not knowing who she will be coming home to..always wondering which personality is talking to her.. it's hard.. but that's something we can't quite change.. there is no cure.. because for those who is in this state,the main personality or the real self..the original one may actually already be dead..refuse to live and move forward.. and then,it is the mind that did everything.. splitting to many personalities so that the body are still capable of doing things but not as the original self.. even the daughter said that way.. she never met her real mother.. that 20 personalities,none of them use her mother's name.. which means,the real one is no longer exists..there is a more sever cases then this one.. there was once a woman that had 92 personalities..that is much more confusing.. and complicated as well..

one thing i learned from watching this show.. sometimes that is the only way for us to protect ourselves.. for our mind to protect itself from horrifying past.. I or any of us can never understand exactly how they felt because we can scarcely imagine it.. so,please don't judge them.. when we met anyone that is traumatized and maybe unwilling to live any longer, please just be there for them,help them in any way that we can..and if we ever know someone that has multiple personalities, give them extra attention.. tell them that you care.. show them that you love them.. since new personality is created when they felt threatened,doing what I said just now might at least prevent the creation of another new personality..

guess that is all that I have to say.. take care everybody.. good night and assalamualaikum ^_^

Should We Hate Our Past?

2011-06-22T02:45:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone..I've been trying to get this post done but never quite have the chance to.. So,since somehow tonight I didn't really feel sleepy yet,I figured that I should at least get one post done.. Should We Hate Our Past? First of all,the inspiration that led to the making of this post actually came from a Korean Drama which I have mentioned before as one of my favourite which is the Dream High..

This drama is mostly about a group of students that wants to debut as singers or idols.. One of them was Kim Pil Sook.. played by IU,one of the famous solo singer in Korea...However,in this drama,Kim Pil Sook is a fat and obese girl.. Only after she fell for a guy named Jason and made a promise with him that she decided to lose weight and she became a very cute and pretty girl.. Below is her picture in this drama before and after she lose weight..

However,when they were about to debut and perform on stage for the first time,Kim Pil Sook was invited to a TV Show and a picture of her old self was discovered.. She handled the questions coolly and after the show,she and Jason went to a place that she really likes.. and these are the dialogues that caught my attention..

Jason : Your photos on your mini home page and blog,how about erasing it?
Pil Sook : I should do that,right? But,that's a bit sad.. The fact that I am embarrassed of those pictures and that I have to keep erasing them..Even when I was 82 kg,I was quite happy. I had passed the Kirin High School auditions and stood up on stage for the first time. And I met a lot of great friends. And I met you as well.But when people look at those pictures,they're going to say it's shocking and point fingers.To me,those were joyful moments of my life.The more this happens,one day even I will begin to hate that image of me.That's what I'm afraid of..

Before I proceed with my opinion,let me make this one thing clear.. There are things from our past that we want to forget,terrible,horrible or miserable things.. but this past that I am referring to is the one of which people will have negative perceptions of it but you actually had a great time and sweet memories of that moment.. For example,when you are once poor and lived in a village and when you are now rich and live in the city, some people will think negatively about you.. whether or not you receive proper education and somehow your lifestyle before is like an infection to them,disgusting or similar to that.. This is the kind of past that I'm referring to,okay?

So,my opinion? Should we hate our past or be embarrassed by it? No..of course not.. so what if we are once fat? So what if we were poor? There is no now if there is no then..Who we are today is not going to be this way if we had not gone through all of that past right? So what if people talk about it.. ? They never been in our shoes,never felt the happiness we shared with others,never know how such small things are memorable and valuable..

We should not hate our past.. or be embarrassed of it.. Do you really want to hate yourself? that's not a very good idea.. because once you hate the old you,don't you think the happiness you have felt in your past is going to fade away and disappear? Is that what you want? To lose your great memories? I don't think so..

I guess everyone is clear to what I am saying right? Past is past but some things or some parts of it will lives on.. because a part of who we become is influenced by our experiences.. Think about it ya... don't be ashamed of who you are.. you should be proud that you have become a new person through hard work and strong determination to change that past of yours and at the same time you have learnt a lot from it....

Guess that is all..thanks for reading... love you everyone.. daa.. assalamualaikum

Smile. Someday. Art of Letting Go.

2011-06-17T02:10:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Anyeonghaseyo..hello everyone..If any of you was reading my blog.. you should realize that my playlist have changed..There are three songs.. which is Smile by Charice,Someday by IU and Art of Letting Go by Mikaila.. the reason I chose these three songs is not just because its lyrics is somehow related to me but also for other reasons as well.. The first song is a song that says no matter what happens,we should always smile.. I like this song because the music and the lyrics seems so like my taste..haha..Someday by IU is a soundtrack song from one of my favourite korean drama which is Dream High.. the message given by this song is a bit similar to Smile.. which is the sun will shine again.. after all the trials,turbulence,heartache,tears and so on,everything will be okay again and you'll be just fine..The third song..the lyrics was really nice,but it was the video that I found most related..the words in the video,most of them are words that I have been searching for this whole time to put it together and finally be the words that I really wanted to say but never know how to..here are the translation of the second song and the lyrics of the third one..

Someday by IU

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up

I hope the warm Sunshine dries these tears

When I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted,

I want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard

every time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have

I lost strength in my legs and drop down

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”

But it makes me afraid little by little

I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t

Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out

But wait it’ll come

Although the night is long, the sun comes up

Someday my painful heart will get well

I hope it helps me now.

I hope the God will help me

I don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

But wait it’ll come

Although the night is long, the sun comes up

Someday my painful heart will get well

MIKAILA - ART OF LETTING GO
Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

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That's all for now.. hope you enjoy my choice of songs.. take care everyone.. assalamualaikum..:)

My Eclipse...

2011-06-17T01:55:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone.. How’s your day? I hope that it is going great for all of you.. my day? well,just at home doing nothing.. but I am quite worry about the weather right now.. the wind are scary.. too strong.. It's like it can make me fly away if I ever step a foot outside of my house..huhu.. lets just hope it's not gonna last for long..okay,back to the topic...My Eclipse? What does that suppose to mean?

Well, if you are one of my classmate, you might have seen me bringing and reading this book.Twilight:Eclipse.. even during the lecture..( it’s a way to kill the sleepiness).. I’m not sure of how many times did I read this book over and over again but I’m pretty sure it is close to ten.. huhu.. why did I do so? Well,first because I really love Twilight movies.. and when I read its books, I think the storyline in those books are far more interesting.. And somehow between all four, I find Eclipse as the one I can really relate with..

Somehow,when I read it over and over again, everything about the story seems more and more comprehensible.. All the conflicts, trials, drama, love, friendship that are sculptured into this book, I can now understand every feeling in every scene.. But one question lingers though.. If you are a follower of my blog, I did once write a post on “Can you love two person at the same time?”.. This question was answered by my friend.. she said that one is love and one is crush.. But I don’t quite think that that is the truth.. and as I was reading the book, this dialogues really got me thinking.. And I pondered upon it for a very long time.. For those who did not read the book, this is what Edward said to Bella supposedly after Bella said “I love you more” in the movie..

“When I left you, Bella, I left you bleeding. Jacob was the one to stitch you back up again. That was bound to leave its mark-on both of you. I’m not sure those kinds of stitches dissolves on their own. I can’t blame either of you for something I made necessary. I may gain forgiveness, but that doesn’t let me escape the consequences.”

It sure took me some time.. for the meaning to sink in.. once it did, suddenly it seems like everything started to make sense...everything that I questioned myself too frequently.. Questions that I once thought as an unsolvable math question..with no answer available..when actually there is.. It is true what our hearts said to one another.. no doubt about mine, that’s for sure.. but if only it was enough, things would not have turned out this way.. it was there.. just enough to hurt one another, not nearly enough to change anything, not at all enough to change the direction and the storyline.. Edward’s Bella and Jacob’s Bella can never exist together..

Been in two positions,never once in Edward's..oww yupz.. not very lucky.. though of course being Bella is what girls always dream of.. but what most of us forget is the consequences that needed to be dealt with later.. once the choice have to be made.. My eclipse,lets just say,I'm waiting for the sun to shine brightly again.. the sun is hiding behind the clouds for now.. haha.. such a deep meaning.. sorry if you don't understand..

all I can say is if any of you felt like you are in any position of those three,Bella,Edward or Jacob,do try to read the book and understand everything.. try to look at the situation from all angles and perspectives.. I'm sure you will see it clearly in the end.. as clear as I did.. and now,I really have no more doubts or questions.. it felt like I have solved that math question..and I felt so relieved,so refreshed and the weirdest part was my heart emptied..

I learned that there are difference between air and wind.. The air surrounds us all the time,always with us wherever we go..the wind is different.. once it passes us by,it can never return..exactly how it felt like with my heart..like a soothing wind just came into it and take everything away.. it is a foolish thing to think of myself as the air when I am the wind.. I wanted to be the air.. to always be there even when I am not needed.. but it can't be that way because wind will always be wind...so,for becoming greedy...,biane..(sorry)

huhu.. I think some guessed it.. where I learned about it.. it is BOF drama,.. huhu.. some said that watching drama is non-beneficial,but as for me,it is where I learn a lot more things about life.. mostly when we watched that drama more than once and we will unconsciously began to reflect and search for anything similar between our real life story with the life story in that drama..but most of us are too be busy looking at the hero's good looks,right? hehe.. just trying to liven up your moods readers...

Okie,I don't want to get too carried away..I might ended up rambling afterwards.. but I do have one last thing to say.. In that book,Alice said to Bella," I'm sorry that you have to choose between two good things.." the thing that came up to my mind is that I hope I was one..Another post is coming after this so I will leave you here for now.. gotta go.. sorry if this post makes you felt so boring.. like I said,this blog is for me to express myself and at the same time,to get everything out my mind.. thee hee hee..see ya soon.. take care.. assalamualaikum..

Something Borrowed...

2011-06-16T23:37:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. We meet again,my fellow readers.. For this post,I'm gonna make it simple and short.. Hopefully.. If I didn't get carried away.. hee.. Have any of you watch this movie or read the book? It's a romantic comedy movie,if I am not mistaken.. let me share with you a funny story first.. I went to the cinema with a friend,Ikha and we decided to watch this movie because this movie seems like it is easy to understand.. so,we bought the tickets, popcorns and drinks.. however,when we gave the ticket to the person in charged for checking it,he asked us whether or not we have reached the age of 18.. i was saying to myself,"we are 20 this year and you think we are underage?" I didn't say that out loud of course.. we said yes and asked him whether or not he wants to see our IC.. but he believed us.. haha.. and then I thought,I can really lie about my age then..if it is necessary.. I can say that I am at a younger age than I actually am.. huhu.. interesting..

Okie,, about the movie.. The movie storyline is pretty simple.. about three friends falling for one another.. love triangle between a guy and two women which are bestfriends..then,there's heartbroken girl,canceled wedding.. and two of them live happily ever after.. one found another guy..so,everybody is happy.. but that's not what I am interested in.. it is what they say about what they want to be and what they are suppose to be..

think about it everybody.. we all have our own ambitions.. we want to be either an actor,an engineer,an architect and etc.. but then,our parents or our family wants us to be other than what we dream for.. and they keep telling us,we are suppose to be a doctor because people look up to them.. we must be an engineer because the salary offered was high..but then,what about what we want to be? what about our dream? what about our passion in that particular thing? I heard once that when we have passion in doing our job,then that job becomes play..

So,what should we do then? be who we want to be or who we are told to be? based on what I usually heard,it is good to follow what your heart says,for long term sake..but we can't let our parents down,can we? in this situation,I think the only way to solve it is for us to take our time and think very very carefully and wisely on which path that are best for us.. we have also heard that sometimes what we don't like might actually be good for us right? It is our life.. we have to decide for ourselves..okie? be brave and confident while making that choice..

I guess that is all for now.. I can't really say which one is better,to be what we want or to be who we are suppose to be.. because everybody's different.. everybody have different interests,problems and backgrounds.. so,only you yourself know which one is best for you.. and in certain situation,you can actually be both.. but that requires hard work,a very high determination and undying spirit.. Think carefully everyone.. but stay healthy ya.. don't let your brain get so stressed up.. enjoy life while you can still do it.. I hope this helps someone somehow.. good night and take care.. assalamualaikum.. :)

Horse-Riding..

2011-06-16T22:52:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone.. Just wanna share with you one of my favourite thing to do and my dream.. Ever since I was a little girl, I love horses.. Got a chance to ride it for the first time when I was in Primary 4.. And I really like it.. so, since that day.. I have one dream..to have a chance to ride a white horse..

Then,just a few days after I arrived in KK for this holiday,my dad brought us all to his friend's horse stable..and there it was.. a white horse..! only Allah knows how happy and excited I was during that moment.. hee.. however,since that we kinda come without asking any permission from my father's friend,we can't ride it..but we were allowed to go near it and touch it..so,here are some of the photos taken.. I really hope that I can ride it one day.. any horses as long as it is white.. but if there is none,any colour will be okay too.. even more great if I can have one of my own.. though that is quite expensive..haha..

I really really want one.. hee^_^

Good horse..:)

I'm quite nervous but it is really great..

the stable..

me and my brother..

guess that is all for now.. take care everyone.. do share with me if you have any dreams that are quite similar to mine..good night.. assalamualaikum..^_^

You Will Never Be 'FULL'..

2011-06-16T01:08:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone.. Nice to see you again..^_^Since that I have some free time today,I will do as best as I can to post as many I could.. hee.. Weeks ago,I watched the Oprah Winfrey Show.. Ermm.. The guest was Dwayne John or also known as The Rock..He said this during that show.. and I think that it is a good quote to ponder on.. The quote is :

When you ever feel hungry,then you will never be full..

Hungry that was said in this quote was not the usual hungry that we felt when we didn't eat..Basically it means that if you ever felt like wanting something or you have this enormous desire..once you get what you want,you will never be satisfied and always wanting more.. for example,money..when we achieved that goal of having lots of money,we will usually won't stop looking for them.. we want more and more money.. right?

However,we have to realize that desiring something may have its own good and bad sides.. depending on what it is that we desire... if it is about our career,if we have the determination to keep trying on making our career bigger and become more successful than we already are,then that type of hungry is a good one isn't it?

From my point of view,it is not wrong if we want more and more than what we already have but at the same time,don't forget to be thankful for whatever you already have.. because when it comes to the time where you forgot to be thankful and lost in that search of yours,you might end up losing everything.. remember that once you have achieved the thing that makes you so hungry for it,there are others who are not as fortunate as you are.. so,please don't forget to share it with others as well..

I guess that is all for now.. Just want to share this quote with you.. take care ya everyone.. and please remember... decide first whether it is good or bad.. only make a move towards the good things okay? last but not least,we may never feel full,but we must always be thankful to Allah for whatever that was given to us.. have a great day.. assalamualaikum..^_^

It Is Possible..

2011-06-15T13:55:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone.. Waaa.. it has been 12 days since my sister was born.. finally,I have some time to write something in this abandoned-for-awhile blog.. I am just so busy everyday taking care of all the house chores.. and trust me,it wasn't easy.. adapting to a new environment where there is a baby to take care of and also an 7+ years old brother which also needs attention..and for some moments,it felt like I was the mother.. you know,in movies we saw a scene where a mom carrying her baby on one hand and another child is tagging along asking for drinks or food.. so,the mother has to prepare that food and drink using the other hand..that was what I have to go through sometimes.. but then,at that moment too,life seems so interesting,fascinating and of course, challenging.. however,a smile from their faces really makes me feel like I can do anything in this world for them just to see those smiles again..

Which now brings me to my true intention for posting.. Well,weeks ago,probably almost a month ago,I came across this quote when I was watching some TV show.. Can't quite remember the details but I think it was the Korea's..The quote was..

If You Think That It Is Not Impossible,Than It Is Possible..

I think the meaning of this quote is clear and obvious enough.. whenever there is something that you want,take a deep breath and thing carefully about the possibility of you achieving it.. If you think that you have the capability and confidence of getting what you want,then it is possible.. when you think it is impossible,that it will stay that way and you can never achieve it.. what do I think? well, I think that in whatever we want to do,we must have at least a bit of confidence that it is not impossible.. even if the percentage for that confidence was just 0.01%.. this is because,that confidence allows ourselves to believe,to have faith.. and finally have the courage to at least give it a try..right?

I want to hold on to this quote.. There are a lot of things that we first thought was impossible but turned out to be invented or done by other people..so,why not have some faith that we can do it too? Guess that is all for now.. Take care everyone.. It is great to finally have a chance to write down some of the things in my mind.. hehe.. Good night and sweet dreams... We will meet again.. till then, thank you for your time reading.. ^_____^ assalamualaikum

Lahirnya Qaseh..

2011-06-04T00:54:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum..hola everybody..finally after a long period of time,this blog is being updated again..For this post,just wanna share with you a great news...0n 3 June 2011,at 7.55 pm, a cute baby girl was born..and that baby girl is my SISTER... aaaaa... I'm soooo happy... She's so cute... hehe.. Name? haven't decide yet.. but I wanna call her Qaseh.. heee.. love that name.. no matter what her name will be,I will call her that.. thee hee.. everything went so well.. I'm so glad that my mother and my new sister are both fine.. hee.. ^_^ here are some of the pictures.. of the happy moments..

Saranghaeyo Qaseh... ^_^

that's all guys.. doakan kesejahteraan dan kebahagiaan kami sekeluarga..:) assalamualaikum

The Perfect Match..

2011-05-02T19:19:00.002+08:00

Hello everybody.. assalamualaikum.. waa..it's been a while isn't it? well..kinda busy with exams right now.. so,forgive me ya?? hee.. just taking a break from my revision on Calculus.. I just want to share this with all of you.. found it days ago..just never really have the time or mood to update this blog.. hee.. so,for those who already have someone.. or in the phase of getting to know someone.. here are some tips for you.. hope that it turns out useful enough..hee.. that's all.. will be updating again later tonight.. see ya later.. take care everyone.. :)

Wonder if this one’s The One? Below are some telltale tip-offs you two are headed for happily ever after — plus, five clear-cut clues that spell bad news.

First, the good news: You’re headed toward happily ever after if…

1. You discover quirky things you have in common
It’s one thing to discover you both like the new Coldplay album. It’s another to discover your tastes or habits jibe in more surprising ways. “What confuses people is that they think they’re a match because they have things in common that many people have in common, like favorite books or songs, so they’re fooled into thinking they’re on the same wavelength,” says Sam R. Hamburg, Ph.D., author of Will Our Love Last? “The more uncommon and surprising your similarities are, the better.” That was definitely the case for one Rochester, NY dater named Patrick McAvoy. “I have this weird habit of belting out what I’m doing in song, so when I started dating Bethany, one morning I started singing ‘Here I am, in the shower...’ to the tune of Jesus Christ Superstar,” recalls the 29-year-old. “When she started singing back, making up more words to the same tune, I couldn’t believe it! I knew it would work out.” And it has — for three years so far.

2. Neither of you flinch when the future comes up
It’s a new-couple nightmare: One of you blurts out something like, “Ooh, next summer we should go to Greece” — and then freezes, fearing the other person will think, “Next year? We don’t even know if we’ll make it to next month!” But if you and your date don’t bat an eye — or better, smile and agree — you’ve successfully crossed a crucial divide. “It’s a sign that you both feel stable in the relationship,” says Sharyn Wolf, author of So You Want To Get Married: Guerilla Tactics For Turning A Date Into A Mate. So while we don’t suggest making plans with your date for next Christmas, take careful notes on what happens if you do mention some advance planning.

3. It’s super-important that your friends like your new partner
You thought introducing your date to your parents was the ultimate test? On the contrary, introducing him or her to your friends is even more pivotal. That’s because while you can’t choose your family, you can choose your friends, so they reflect the person you’ve become over the years. So if you find yourself prepping your pals about someone you’d “really like them to meet,” it’s a sign you’re seeing this relationship as more than just a fling. “When I introduced my girlfriend Yvi to my friends, I was completely nervous beforehand because we were from such different worlds — she was a Hispanic girl from Newark, and I was a banker from the Jersey shore,” says Dave Koczan-Santiago. “And truthfully, things didn’t click right away. But when I realized how important it was to me that they all like each other, I knew the relationship was a bigger deal to me than I even thought it was. Now here we are, 10 years later, happily married.”

4. You think in “we” terms even when the going gets tough
Sooner or later, all couples start transitioning from “Hey, what are you doing Saturday night?” to “Hey, what are we doing Saturday night?” Sure, that’s good, but for a real gauge on your relationship, see how you react to these scenarios: If your date wants to leave a party early, do you happily offer to leave as a couple rather than feeling annoyed or wanting to stay on your own? If your boss wants you to plan a business trip, do you wonder whether it fits with your sweetie’s schedule? These are signs you’re truly willing to merge lives, and it’s all the more telling if you weren’t into your date’s “thing” to begin with. “I live in New York and could live my whole life without a car and be happy, but when my boyfriend said he wanted to bring his Chevy pickup with him when he moved here from Boston, of course I offered to help him find cheap insurance and parking,” says Erin Brennan. “The interesting thing is that after driving it a few times and investing all the time in helping him, I found myself telling people about ‘our’ truck and really starting to understand why he loves it so much.”

5. You constantly stumble across things you want to share
Most couples will exchange a few “thinking of you” phone calls or emails when they’re apart. But if you can’t walk down the street without tripping over some funny story to tell later or can’t leave a store without thinking at least once, “Oh, my sweetie would love that…” then things are rosy indeed. Basically, it’s a sign that while you may not realize you’re thinking about your date, you are and just can’t help it, explains Wolf.

Now, the bad news: You could be headed toward a dead end if…

1. You roll your eyes at each other during an argument
You say potato, your date says… well, even if he or she says it the same way, it’s a given you’re not going to see eye-to-eye on everything. And that’s okay — your differences are what make things interesting! But while disagreeing is fine, it’s bad news if one of you rolls your eyes at the other during the argument. “The reason you roll your eyes at someone is because the other person is saying something you think makes absolutely no sense to you and you don’t respect what they’re saying,” says Hamburg. And since R-E-S-P-E-C-T is the cornerstone to any good relationship, take any eye-rolling you or your mate does as a bad omen.

2. You can’t handle the uncomfortable silences
Every date has its quiet lulls here and there when the dialogue runs dry, and if these moments don’t faze you, congratulations for reaching that comfort level. But if you find yourself squirming in your seat, trying to come up with things to say, checking your cell phone hoping to find a voicemail, or going back to the same old topics (“Have you talked to your sister lately?”) that could spell trouble, since it shows you’re not really relaxed when you’re around them. Take it from Jason Parker of Atlanta: “The whole time my date and I were eating dinner, we’d have moments of silence during which she kept checking her cell phone,” he says. “Finally I asked her if she was waiting for a call, and she said, ‘No, I’m just checking the time.’ As if that was any better!” Whether this gal was indeed nervous or just plain rude, either way, Jason was relieved when their brief relationship was happily over.

3. Your dates are always chock-full of distractions
It’s healthy for you and your love to fill your time together with fun activities and mutual friends — that is, as long as that’s not all you do together. “It’s not a good sign if the only things you’re saying to each other are, ‘Let’s hang with friends, or let’s do something like go to the ballgame or a movie,’” says Wolf. The reason: These things are buffers that help you avoid really getting to know each other, which may indicate that your one-on-one time isn’t so thrilling. If an offer of “Tonight, let’s just hang out together alone” doesn’t sound exciting, ask yourself: Do you really want to spend the rest of your life with this person?

4. You find yourself criticizing little things about each other
Everyone tends to be positive to each other on the first few dates, “but if the other person starts making critical comments, like not liking what you’re wearing, that’s not good,” says Dr. Hamburg. Criticism, whether you realize it or not, is a way of pushing someone away — so if either of you are saying things that seem innocuous like, “That shirt looks weird” or “How can you stand living on this street?” you’re tapping into a bigger problem. “As time passes, you should find yourself wanting to treat your partner as well as you did at the beginning of your relationship,” says Bonnie Eaker Weil, Ph.D., a relationship expert in New York, NY. If not, consider this breakdown in polite behavior very bad news.

5. You only want to deal with each other when the chips are up
It’s a red flag if the person you’re with gives you the cold shoulder when you’re not feeling hunky dory about something in your life. Happily ever after means loving — or at least liking — someone when life isn’t so sweet. “I was seeing a guy who was usually wonderful, but when I would have a bad day and wanted to just talk to him or be near him, I’d call, and he wouldn’t call back for days,” says Rachel Harrison of Brooklyn, NY. “He just didn’t seem to want to know the whole me, in good times and bad.” And being able to weather the tough times — together — is definitely a quality that every good relationship needs.

Source - match.com

To EH2232B : Kami Susun Sepuluh Jari...

2011-04-22T22:47:00.006+08:00

Assalamualaikum..Hola everybody! especially to EH2232B..(^__^) okay..untuk post kali nie...xde skema2 sangat la ek.. sejak bermulanya study week tu,adala kan beberapa orang which are my classmates yang hantar sms.. sms yg memohon maaf dan yang sewaktu dengannya lah senang citer.. nak dekat2 exam ni..memang elok ea kite bermaaf-maafan betul tak..? supaya persaingan pun sehat2 jew.. xde hard feelings,xde emo2 ye...so,kami pun nak gak..(xnak kalah ni..:P)..here goes...

KAMI..

dengan ini menyusun sepuluh jari memohon maaf sekiranya ada terkasar bahasa,tersilap kata,menyinggung rasa dan tersalah perbuatan.. kami gurau2 jer.. janganla ambik hati ea.. kitorang gak nak ucapkan thank you so much kat sape2 yang pernah ajar kiteorang..yang sudi wat study group ngan kiteorg.. harap ilmu yang korang bagi tu dah dihalalkan la yew.. :)

kat kesempatan ni gak,kiteorang nak ucapkan thank you untuk sms2 korang tu.. don't worry..anda semua telah dimaafkan.. hehe.. so,korang pn maafkan kiteorang gak k.. and sama2 la kite doakan semoga semua boleh jawap exam nanti dengan tenang dan dapat keputusan yang best2.. amin.. ^_^

tu je la kot.. akhir kata..sekali lagi dari kami semua.. Maaf.. Sorry..Perdona me.. Gomenasai..Biane..Kor tot na...对不起 (Toy pu chi..)..take care everyone..wish you all the best in final exam..chaiyok2.. hwaiting!!

Don't Hold Too Tightly..

2011-04-21T23:51:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum...Hello everyone.. Nice to see you again.. I am trying to study actually but my mind is kinda full with the idea for this post..So,I should finish this first.. hee.. Okie..here goes...But.. I think I am going to write it in mixed language..Malay and English..hee.. sorry..

Bayangkan korang pegang satu gelas kaca dengan sekuat-kuat yang boleh,apa akan jadi? pecah kan? dan akhirnya,tangan korang gak yang luka dan korang yang rasa sakit,betul tak?

Cuba kita aplikasikan dengan orang lak.. andaikan korang ada seseorang yang korg sayang sangat2 dan korang ambil berat tentang dia.. cara korang tunjukkan pula adalah dengan sentiasa mahu si dia ada di sisi,dia hanya boleh pergi ke tempat yang korg benarkan dan bersikap seolah-olah tidak mempercayai si dia apabila berjauhan...agak-agak la kan,si dia tu akan kekal bersama korang atau korang akan kehilangan dia suatu hari nanti?

To make it simple, don't hold on to something or someone too tightly, because you might end up losing that thing or that person entirely.. and you are the one who will get hurt.. macam tangan tadi.. that is why sometimes,we must learn to let go.. not entirely but slowly.. no matter how much we love or care,it won't last forever.. we cannot have it by our side forever.. we have to let go,slowly.. hold on a little bit is still okay though..

tak salah pun sebenarnya kalau nak hold on pada seseorang,tapi setiap orang perlukan ruang masing-masing.. setiap orang ada kehidupan dia sendiri.. mungkin cara tu betul pada kita,tapi mungkin tak pada orang lain.. so,fikir-fikirla dulu..

saya tak nak la huraikan panjang-panjang.. rasanya semua orang faham kan apa yang saya cuba sampaikan.. kalau tak pun,bayangkan je contoh kaca tadi.. bayangkan kalau itu adalah seseorang yang anda sayang... apa rasanya bila gelas tu pecah,yakni apabila korang kehilangan seseorang itu..? mungkin gelas itu boleh korang sambungkan balik tapi ia takkan sama.. do you really want to take that risk? the risk of you thinking that everything you did was for that person to be happy and always smile but then it was you who took the happiness and the smile away...

think about it..guess that is all for now..take care everyone.. good night..
assalamualaikum..

p/s: ~if only you can see how much tears I'm hiding behind my smile..~

Maybe,But It is not Enough..

2011-04-21T14:47:00.003+08:00

Everytime I asked myself about things around me,the answer will always be " Maybe,but it is not enough..." Guess I have to live with that fact here..

p/s: ignore it if you don't understand.. a piece of advice for you and me, don't expect too much.. cause all it does is hurt..

What a Lonely Night.. T_T

2011-04-19T23:46:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone.. Assalamualaikum.. guess what? I didn't do any revision tonight.. I don't know.. totally not in the mood.. though I know that my exams are getting nearer.. I can't really force myself.. because if I did,I will only remember it for awhile.. and I have to revise it again.. so,it's better if I am really in the mood and I can easily remember them and for a long time too..

What a lonely night.. It's good enough that I can stop T_T.. huhuhu... emo la malam2 ni.. reason? hhmmm.. just memories that keeps playing in my head.. family,friends.. or maybe because I'm jealous that my friends went back to their hometown while I stayed here...hmm.. no,I think it's the memories that bothers me so much.. hee..

okay.. dah2.. huhu..senyum2.. hee.. mesti happy2.. but I have nothing more to say.. hahaks.. take care everyone.. good night...

p/s: sorry.. this is a non-beneficial post..:p

Cry On My Shoulder...

2011-04-19T19:41:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone.. just updating before I start doing revision..huhu.. Yesterday night,my best friend,Haafiza,tagged a link for me at Facebook.. It's a song called Cry On My Shoulder.. And I almost cried when I heard this song.. the lyrics are so beautiful and very meaningful.. thank you so much Fyza.. really2 fell in love with this song.. miss you so much! hope to see you when I'm in KK for the holidays.. ^__^

I edited my playlist already.. added two songs.. This song.. and the other one is A Place In This World by Taylor Swift.. I chose the second song is simply because it is kinda related to the 'Should Azza Come Back?' post.. I'm still trying to find myself..still trying to find a place in this campus world,specifically.. heee..

Guess that is all for now.. just wanna say thank you so much to Fyza for this song.. It is such a great song.. You can cry on my shoulder too my dear,I promise.. hee.. take care everyone.. assalamualaikum..

Excuses,Excuses,Excuses...

2011-04-19T17:30:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum... Hello everyone.. In the middle of a study group actually but I really don't think I can accept anything anymore.. my brain feels like bursting.. haha.. besides,this subject sure is a mind-boggling to me..because it involves physics,which I am very weak in...

Okay..today's topic will be about excuses.. what about it? hhmm..have you ever met someone that loves to make excuses? in everything apparently..I don't really approve of it though.. I mean,once or twice is okay,but several times are just unacceptable.. It becomes annoying eventhough that excuse sounds logical enough..

example? when we have an extra activity and unfinished assignment.. everyone went through the same thing and still had time to complete the assignment but only this one person said there isn't enough time..

it's kinda hard to deal with this kind of situation actually.. and in the end,the only thing that we will do is just act like we don't care..because even if we did care,it's not like that person will appreciate it anyway..

honestly,I don't know what to do.. does anyone has any idea?do let me know ya.. guess that is all.for now.. hehe... take care everyone.. assalamualaikum

And The Study Week Begins..

2011-04-16T02:45:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone...it's almost 3 am in the morning and I'm still not sleepy.. So,I figured why not I spend the time updating this blog of mine,right?

As you can see from my title, the study week for semester 2 has officially begins.. which means I should be preparing as best as I can to sit for my final exams.Only now,I am still in the resting mood.. hee..

I'm kinda jealous actually,to those who went back home during this study week.. Obviously,I am not in any condition which allows that to happen..unless if I have my own private plane.. hahaha..just kidding..

okie guys.. to be honest,I have nothing to say really. just I hope any of you who went home during this study weeks will have a good time.. And don't forget to study ya.. Our subjects is getting harder and tougher every semester. let us all try to achieve the best results possible this semester k..

That's all for now.. good night everyone.. assalamualaikum..

p/s: just don't let yourself having too much mental pressure okie? learning is fun.. just do our best and believe in ourselves..

Should Azza Come Back?

2011-04-12T09:35:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone.. As promised,this is the second post after the post about the last week of semester 2..Sorry that it's a bit late though..I thought I can make it done by midnight yesterday,only I was too sleepy.. huhu..

Should Azza come back? Who is Azza? let me tell you a story about this young girl...

She's a young teenager,aged 17.. eversince she was a little girl,she loves to read,enjoyed learning and exploring the world.. she enjoyed doing mathematics problems,interested so deeply in psychology,forensics and the explorations on human body.. she is a smart student, never have any problems in school,everybody like her.. everybody wants to be her friend because she's clever..because to them,she seems so perfect..

suddenly,one day,she felt that everything she like,became a burden to her.. she became so scared.. that she might not be able to carry it on her shoulder.. all the expectations,all the hopes and dreams.. and then,she felt so jealous of others.. of others' life.. so happy,so free,so simple.. just do their best and that is enough.. but for her,doing her best and get just average results like others is not even close to enough...

and then,she decided to just let it be.. she changed her name when she went to a new place.. people there called her Zahra... she struggled so hard.. because she thought that if she was able to make Azza and Zahra to coexist harmoniously,that everything will be okay.. that Azza will still strive for success and Zahra gets to be happy doing things that she can't do before.. things that she was so jealous when other people can do it.. but how can that be possible..??Because in the end, Azza lost.. Zahra's personality was the dominant one.. and Azza faded,like memory..and so does all of Azza's dreams.. shattered to million pieces.. There is a saying that says,

"When you give up or does not hold on tightly to something that is important to you, you will gradually lose yourself."

Guess that is what happened to Azza..

Zahra continued to live.. and it changed again when she went to a new place.. this time,the name is Ara...only Zahra and Ara isn't entirely different from each other.. Ara is just the more independent one.. they coexist together.. and life has been so okay for her..
She felt free and so normal.. She doesn't have anyone complimenting her every second,she's not surrounded by fake friends who just want nothing but benefits from her.. She doesn't have to worry about what other people thinks about her behaviour.. She doesn't have to go through situations where all eyes looked at her where ever she walked or heard people whispering whenever she passed by them.. never have to go through what Azza once experienced..

However,now she kinda misses Azza..her old self.. not that she misses the fame, just misses being good at something.. being the best at what she like most.. which is learning.. can she let Azza come back? can Ara,Zahra and Azza be combine and become one person only..? or will Zahra disagree?

That young girl was me.. this is a true story of me when I was in form 5, matriculation and now,in university.. please don't get me wrong.. just try to understand ya.. life was hard.. and I felt so happy being just like everybody else.. but sometimes I felt like I miss the days where I enjoyed learning,enjoyed tests and exams.. so,should I let Azza to come back? should I dream of a better dream that is suitable for all 3 me.. ?

I guess I should.. I'll try my best to.. I'll let you know later..whether or not it is possible to do so.. take care everyone.. have a great day.. assalamualaikum.. ^_^

p/s: I kinda like this one particular song from 3 Idiots which is Give Me Some Sunshine... cuz it is exactly what I want right now...Azza needs to start growing up again..

"Give me some sunshine,
Give me some rain,
Give me another chance,
I wanna grow up once again.."

Fears Are Not Good For Grades..

2011-04-11T23:39:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello everyone.. I'm kinda taking a break from doing my assignments right now,my head is getting dizzy searching for answers.. so,why not use the time to update my blog right? ^______^

Okie.. since final exams are just around the corner..let's talk about something related to them.. Grades.. Marks... For those who have watched 3 Idiots,my post title might sound familiar to you.. Because that is exactly where I get the idea and I really want to share my opinion about it..

Fears.. Fears of not doing well in exams..Fears of unable to understand or memorize.. Fears of unable to get excellent marks in assignments,quizzes, tests... All of these fears..there are so not good for you my friend.. Sure,everyone feel that way.. but some overcome it..some find ways to turn that fear into motivation.. some clung to it too hard and that is absolutely not a good way..

Fears are so not good for grades.. It will only make you look down to yourself,it makes you lose faith that you can do it and certainly make you lose the ability to stay calm during the examinations..why not study and do revision as best as you can and just do your very best in exams.. don't think too much..don't let that fear to control you.. you are the one who are suppose to control it.. don't lose focus because of it.. it is not worth it..

read this quote and do what it says.. it's true.. this is how life is suppose to be.. not surrounded by fear but fun.. think of learning as a fun thing to do,think of exams as you challenging yourself.. forget about whether or not you get the highest or the lowest mark,it doesn't matter.. all that matters is you learn something.. something new about life..

"Dare to look foolish. The real fools are those who never attempt anything. Dare to make mistakes. They are the best teachers you will ever know. Dare to take action. There's a risk you may fail. Yet if you take no action failure is a certainty. Dare to be fully alive. Dare to speak your mind. Dare to enjoy the beauty of the world. Dare to make a difference. Dare to love. Dare to be the person you know you can be. Dare to expect the best, with your words and actions. You'll usually get it. Dare to do what is right rather than what is convenient or expedient. It will truly make a difference in the way you see yourself, and the way others see you. You're here, with this magnificent day available to you. Dare to make it the best you can."

That's all from me.. remember it ya.. fears are not good.. take care everyone..good night ^_^

Minggu Terakhir Kuliah Semester 2..

2011-04-11T22:47:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.. hhmm..tak sangka sebenarnya,minggu ni adalah minggu terakhir kuliah untuk semester dua kat sini.. minggu depan dah study week.. dan akhirnya, peperiksaan akhir akan tiba juga.. huhu.. risau jugakla sebenarnya.. sebab semester ni pun,subjek dia xde yang senang.. semua orang kata,di tahap selamat jew..tapi alhamdulillah lah kan.. daripada gagal.. hee :) so,kena tingkatkan lagi study ye.. mcm gmbr kat atas tu.. hee..

Takde tujuan sangat sebenarnya tulis ni,sekadar memberitahu.. akan ada dua post menyusul selepas ni.. and memang ada kaitan la dengan exams,marks.. tapi dalam BI la ek.. tapi di kesempatan ini,saya nak memohon maaf sangat2 kalau ada yang baca blog saya tu,kalau saya ada byk sgt kesalahn grammar,sy minta maaf la ek.. sy memang kureng sikit bab2 past tense,present tense ni...tp saya cuba gak la untuk improve.. so,janganlah kutuk2 lak k.. kalau nak tegur,tegur scara baik....budi bahasa budaya kita kan? ^^

Okie lah.. sampai sini saja.. nak ucapkan kepada semua pelajar universiti di seluruh Malaysia,semoga berjaya dalam menduduki peperiksaan yang akan datang... kepada sahabat-sahabat sekelas iaitu EH2232B, semoga kejayaan menjadi milik kita bersama.. jom buktikan pada lecturers yang group B ni walaupun diam2 tapi ada bisanya..all the best to you and me.. hee.. take care..assalamualaikum..

All You're Ever Gonna Be Is Mean..

2011-04-10T23:35:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hello once again.. told ya my writing mood hasn't worn off yet since apparently,this is my fourth post for today.. huhu.. now,should we go straight to the point then? no more rambling,mumbling or whatever.. hehe..

The idea of this post actually came to me when I was listening to a song called MEAN by Taylor Swift.. It is actually written based on those people who keeps on criticizing her.. well,my post will be somehow similar yet different in some ways..

If you did follow my blog,you might have come across a post that basically tells you that we should be thinking positively at almost all times..but what if we try to think positively about someone's attitude but then that person did another thing that makes a negative opinion arises again..? what if everytime we try,we failed to do so? there's always something that we can't accept or tolerate... no matter how much we tell ourselves to forgive,to stay positive,to accept and forget.. even if we succeeded,soon after that,another word that person said feels like a blade that cuts our heart apart,like thunder that makes our ears hurt so much..

Have you ever had anyone like this around you? No matter how much you try to think of good things about him or her, it couldn't last long.. You will always end up feeling annoyed by the words he or she said,feeling so irritated by what he or she did and yet,you doesn't want to tell that person because you are afraid that it might upset that person..confusing situation isn't it? especially if that person is a friend,someone you know and see everyday..

Wanna know what I think? All that I can say from my point of view is,just keep on trying to stay positive and try to have a talk with that person... If that person doesn't seem to care,then stop trying.. Let it be.. Example, a friend asked you to join a club with her,and you said no because you are not interested.. and then the next thing you know,she doesn't want to talk to you and even make a face when she think you wasn't looking.. she barely smile at you anymore and suddenly it is like the two of you are complete strangers to one another...you tried to smile and say Hi everytime you bumped into each other and she continuously ignored it.. then,let her be.. there's no point... why? because all she is ever gonna be is mean... I mean,you didn't do anything wrong and you absolutely don't deserve that kind of treatment..who is she to tell you which club to join and worst,to force you to join it?

Example 2 will be about people who think that they are so great..you know,love to compliment themselves... As jokes,yes,probably acceptable.. but 5 to 10 times of the same thing? that joke must be stopped my dear...sorry but it's not that funny already...

You get what I am trying to say in this post right? There will always be people that criticize us,hate us and did things that we can't accept,but that's life.. There will always be the mean groups,the good groups,the don't care groups,all sorts of them..but don't ever let these kind of people make you look down on yourselves.. If you ever did,then tell yourself, "I should be glad that I'm not like them,I'm different and I am better"... All they are ever gonna be are mean.. don't mind them too much.. they will come to their senses someday,of how much that they have hurt people.. because one fine day,some other people will hurt them..

What about us? Let's just enjoy this life.. and be happy.. don't grieve over someone who doesn't want to be your friend,put a smile on your face and find those who wants to be.. okie everyone? ^_^

Guess that is all for now.. gonna hit the sack now..take care everyone.. hope anyone that are in situations like stated above,take this advise ya...Good night.. Sweet Dreams.. Assalamualaikum...

p/s: Just a quote to ponder...

No matter where life takes you -- big cities, small towns -- you will inevitably run across small minds. People who think they are better than you, people who think that being pretty or popular automatically makes you a worthwhile human. None of these things matter as long as you have a strength of character, integrity . . . sense of pride. So when you meet someone for the first time, don't judge them by their situation in life, because you never know, they may end up being your very best friend." - Dawson's Creek

Always The Best Friend..

2011-04-10T21:53:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hello my readers.. so happy to see you again.. Wondering what is it this time? hee.. this is just my view on something that is oddly inevitable.. in my case of course.. have you ever felt this way? Always have to be the best friend or to be specific, the best girl friend and never really becomes the girlfriend?

There will be moments when we become friends with a guy that are single and that friendship becomes closer.. then,we become best friend.. and sometimes,we feel a bit more towards him,either it is crush,like or love..and we hope he might feel something too.. we searched for the signs or words that might prove it,but never found any.. thus,we realized,that is all we will ever be.. the best friend.. nothing more.. (T_T)

It hurts at first,to learn and accept that.. but eventually,as you have accepted it and at the same time,try to get to know him better,you will discover why the two of you are not meant to be together.. it is either you found something about him that you can't simply tolerate or the feelings you had for him faded by itself as you realize how the two of you are so much more better being friends and how comfortable it is to be just that.. and from then on..both of you will be happy..(^_^)

If any of you did experienced this,please share your story.. I would love to know about it..guess this is all for now.. wouldn't want to make it too long.. I'll see you in the next post.. take care everyone.. Good Night..Assalamualaikum..

p/s: Being a best friend isn't that bad sometimes..

"You can't always get what you want,but if you try.. sometimes you can get what you need.."-Rolling Stones

hold on to this quote,believe in it and you will be just fine and happier,okie..? ^_^

19's Too Young..

2011-04-10T04:20:00.006+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hello everyone.. we meet again.. :) I don't know why I'm so into writing blogs right now.. I guess it might be because of a drama series I've watched.. hhhmmm.. I don't know.. it is just that despite all the drama,conflicts and betrayal in it, I've learned a lot about friendship,love and family.. Maybe some of you might wonder what does the title means.. well.. I'm not sure how long this post will going to be or how exactly the words sound to all of you... but all I know,is I want to get it off my chest..write everything without really thinking too much..so,please.. if you think it's too long and it's boring,feel free to click the close button but please..(yes,i'm begging you),please don't judge.. That is the last thing I need now...

Family.. people that we often take for granted.. why? because we know no matter what we did,they will always be there for us.. and no matter how good their intentions are of not wanting us to get hurt, we will become a rebellious child anyway and in the end,realized that we were wrong.. I did that so many times.. I mean.. I used to get all of things kinda my way.. so,when anytime it wasn't me,I acted out.. but my parents especially,always had my back at any time,no matter how much wrong my decisions are...I'm very very thankful to have them.. Love them so much..

19's probably too young to be thinking the way that I did,feeling the way that I feel because as far that I can recalled,some of the people I met are just thinking that now is the exact moment to enjoy life,enjoy the scholarships,going out with friends every night..but all of that isn't me.. right now,I'm worry.. I'm scared..

I have so many questions inside my head that even if I say them out loud to someone,I doubt that person will want to give answers.,,huhu.. you know.. sometimes,I do think that I'm still a young teenager that needs to find herself and grow up one day to be a very wise adult..I have a lot that has been going in my life... I'm sure all of you does.. but how exactly do we handle it? we stay away right? I've learned something you know.. over all my rebellious act..

I'm trying so hard to keep myself together and save myself from all the heartbreaks.. I mean,I kept everything that's hurting me inside and never told anyone that were suppose to know.. and in the end,I will only give the wrong impression.. But I learned that, when I thought that I don't want to cause them any pain by keeping it, I have actually make it worst,and it hurts them anyway,knowing that we kept secrets from them.. So,I guess.. the truth is better out than a lie.. no matter how bad or how hurt it is..

19 is too young for myself too overly scared about the future..I mean sure,we gonna have to plan it,see where our destiny is.. but,if we are too worry about tomorrow,how are we gonna live today..? there are so many things that will be missed if we didn't take the chances we have.. honestly,problems will always be our BFF,but at least we can try to make our day more livable,right? huhu..and also,a bit too young to be messed with.. I mean,sure it's university time already and all pranks are so high school but who knows campus life can be a lot more scarier? seriously,in a time like this,and a place hundreds kilometers from home,the last thing I need is an enemy..

I am so totally rambling,wasn't I..? I guess I will have to call it a night... I'm actually having a test at 3.00 pm.. so,I'll update again.. trust me,this writing mood isn't worn off yet..so.. I'll see all of you soon... My apologies for not being able to write anything amusing.. this is simply me..a side of me that's probably never quite out of the shadow..so,good night everyone.. take care..sweet dreams.. assalamualaikum..

p/s: no matter how much someone has matures, no matter how grown up someone has be,there is always a child in their heart.. a little boy or girl that's maybe craving for some attention.. I guess,all I'm saying is,sometimes a person have to think unwisely about things and not let it gets to your head too much.. listen to your heart..the answers is there.. :)

My Best Days Are Ahead of Me...

2011-04-10T03:48:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hi everyone.. thank you for still keep on reading my blog.. I know somehow everyone love Videoblog more than the typed one.. but,who cares,right? I still have my true friends that are also my loyal readers.. I won't trade that for having hundreds of followers but never really followed me.. and I really am happy when one or two that dropped by told me that my blog is good and I should keep on writing.. thanks for all your support.. I really appreciate it..I know my blog have been full of depression,hurt,all the negative feelings ever a few months ago..so,for that,I apologize... I'm not trying to show anyone anything, I'm not trying to blame anyone.. I'm just not used to this whole 'telling your best friend everything about what you feel ' thing.. I tend to keep things to myself and when I can no longer stand it,then I'll go to them.. I am stucked between being a loner and a friendly friend.. Now,I really want to start opening up my heart.. to new things,new challenges.. my friend shared the link to this song weeks,probably months ago at Facebook but this song... is what I dream of right now.. not that I'm saying the old me will disappear completely,I will still probably looking back once in a while,but I will not stop moving forward.. because I really believe and have full faith that My Best Days Are Ahead Of Me...^_^

Hope all of you enjoy the song and the clip video.. Thank you so much for reading.. :) I'll see you in the next post... Take care.. Good Night..Assalamualaikum^_^

p/s: Each and every one of us have our ups and downs in life.. and as perfect as someone's life may seems to us,there will always be something that's missing.. 'Life isn't fair' always occurred to any of you? Unfortunately, I guess,it isn't.. I have accepted that and went through it.. what say you? ^_^

Night of Stars... ^_^

2011-04-02T00:28:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hola everyone.. well.. juz want to update my blog.. though this is not really something too important.. But I juz want to share it with all of you since that I had such a great time. On 30 march 2011, the Faculty of Chemical Engineering had organized an annual dinner which the theme is Glamorous.. Students that were compulsory to attend this dinner was Part 1,2,6,7,8 and the dean lists.. and in addition, each group of part 2 students(including me) have to perform that night..So,me and my classmate decided to do a musical role play... just a short one.. we acted and danced....and the song was Kalau Berpacaran and Kekanda Adinda..and guess what? my group won 2nd place in the best performance award..hee.. very2 happy that night...had so much fun preparing for the performance as well.. bcuz by involved in it,most of us become closer and know each other better.. huhu...wokkiee... enough with the talk..the typing to be exact.. below are a few of my photos during that dinner night..

me...

i love this picture... lia n me..

thanks to my classmate,aidil for this photo.. ^_^

no comment...:P

smile ^_^

me and azam.. he's the main actor in our role play..

ali,aenis,me, and lia..aenis is the main actress..

love this one too.. hee :)

peace..

me and my roomate.yusra..

azwan,rozaini and me..azwan is our director.. while rozaini is actually my uncle.. my father and him are distant cousins.. imagine being in my place.. having your uncle as your classmate.. kinda awkward rite? haha.. :P

I guess that is all.. gonna have to do some revision now.. i'll see you again soon.. there are so many things that i want to write... hee.. take care everyone.. good nyte.. :)

Lets Try To See What's Best...

2011-04-01T23:33:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hola everyone.. I'm actually doing some revision but a few minutes of rest should be okay right? huhu.. I really can't stop thinking about this thing.. and it is making me losing my focus to study.. sounds like it is such a bad thing huh? naa... not really.. it's juz that.. i have been surrounded by similar situation for quite a few times.. so,i think i should take it into some consideration and share my opinion with all of you..

Sometimes,there are moments when we see someone and only by judging his or her facial expression,behaviour,way of talking and etc,we jump into conclusion that that person is arrogant or snobbish.. or to be more clear,we think the worst of people..i mean,like really? do we really have to do that? why can't we see what is best instead?

I'm not saying that I never think that way,of course I did.. I often think negatively towards people.. for instance,this person is selfish,that person cannot be trusted and etc... I don't think that it is wrong because each of us have our own opinions but it sure is wrong if we say it out loud without trying to know that person better first..

However,I kept asking myself.why can't we at least try to think positively for a change? changes are good sometimes.. if we keep on thinking this one person is bad,then we will never see that there is good somewhere inside that person right? I'm pretty sure that thinking positively not just towards other people but towards life is the most appropriate thing to do.. unless if you have proof that can make it otherwise of course...

come one,don't be ridiculous.. just because one person screwed up,doesn't mean everybody's the same right? i mean, when you had a friend that steal you money and never admit it,and then you have another one that steal your money too,it doesn't mean that they are totally gonna be the same.. maybe the second one might felt guilty and remorseful and eventually asking you for an apology.. people can change.. who knows what is going to happen in the future? why can't we be more positive in situations that really requires us to do so..? besides,do u know that when you say someone is bad,it is actually yourself..? don't be a bad person...

Lets try to see what's best.. It is going to be worth it.. trust me.. I have been trying to avoid all the negative thinking for quite some time now.. And that is because I know that negative thinking is not gonna give me any good.. if I think negatively about my friend,for example,I think that she is such a rude girl and I can't accept her way,it will only leads to fight or misunderstanding.. the best thing that I can do is just try to learn to accept her way or just ignore her rudeness because probably it is only me that feels that way.. only if a lot feels that way,then we might have to try to talk and give some advises..

I guess this is it.. tke care evryone.. do remember what I posted here.. try to see what is best in people,not their worst,okie? gud nyte.. sweet dreams... assalamualaikum...

Can We Buy True Friends?

2011-03-19T16:59:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hola everyone.. Thank you to everyone that has been so loyal in following my blog. The topic I have chosen for this post is basically a question that actually is an answer to a question that my friend asked me..We were kinda debating about sincerity- take for example two friends,A and B- B ask A for a treat when A asked B to help him in something.. It's something like that in my case and thus,my friend asked me,is there any thing in this world that doesn't require money? And that question bothered me eversince..and this is my answer.. true friends.. becoming a true friend to someone does not require any money.. We can't buy true friends,can we? The only kind of friends that we are going to get if there is money involved is the one who is so good to you when you have money and behave the other way around when you don't..Here are a few quotes that should be able to make us ponder for awhile of what true friends really are...

"Close friends are truly life's treasures. Sometimes they know us better than we know ourselves. With gentle honesty, they are there to guide us and support us, to share our laughter and our tears. Their presence reminds us that no matter what, we're not alone."

"A friend is one that knows who you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still gently allows you to grow."

Being a true friend require honesty,sincerity, tolerance,and loyalty.. Maybe when we are in a new place and still in search of our true friends,we will encounter some who seems like they can be that friends we need but turn out to be fake friends.. you know,just pretending to be..It's not easy to find true friends but it is not impossible either.. once we found a true friend,try to hold on to that person.. Wanna know whether or not that someone is your true friend,this might help you.. True friend is someone who you can call and talk at 3 am in the morning..someone who is willing to go back to the place where she has been just ten minutes ago just to take your belongings that you forgot. someone who would not mind accompanying you when you ask him or her to eventhough he or she does not buy anything..

I guess all of you understand what I am trying to say here right?money can't buy true friends.. which means there are still some things in this world that does not require any money.. all that is needed for having a true friend is to be a true friend to someone first.. that's all for the time being... see ya in the next post.. :) take care..peace be upon you... ^_^

Sifat Mengikut Bulan Islam..

2011-03-19T12:24:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. saja je nak share.. hee...do try this application kat facebook.. it's nice to get to know yourself even more.. yela.. kadang-ladang kita tak sedar pun sifat kita mcm tu..lgpun,certain application kat facebook ni,results dia ada gak la yg tepat2 dan sesuai dengan kita.. hee..i guess that is all...don't really have any idea on what to write... upcoming activies... probably be going to DiGi Leap this coming weekend.. if I do,I'll tell you about it..have dinner night on 30 march which the theme is glamorous.. and we have to do a performance.. really hope that I'll have a great time.. suppose to go to UTM Skudai on 1-3 April 2011 as supporter for the SPE programme where UiTM OAG students and UTM students will compete..but due to some unavoidable reasons,I guess probably some other time then..huhu..what else ya?guess that is it.. I'll update this blog if I have any topic that sounds interesting to me..take care everyone.. have a nice day.. :)

Rahsia Tarikh Lahir..

2011-03-14T13:37:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum..hello everyone.. saje je ni nak update blog memandangkan kelas batal la plak kan.. saya pn tak sure la bila sy terjumpa application ni kat fb,tapi mcm menarik jew.. hee..iaitu Rahsia Tarikh Lahir Pasangan... tp,saya bukanlah curious ttg rahsia tarikh lahir pasangan sbb bkn ada pun sekrg kan.. hee.. tapi curious mcm mana agaknya sikap sy kalau jd pasangan seseorang.. so,saya pun cubalah application tu tp pilih tarikh lahir sendiri.. dan keputusannya adalah...

hmmmm... yang part mudah tersinggung tu,maafla ye tp mmg btul pun.. kesian kat kawan2 gak sometimes tapi nak wat camne,sensitif sangat..cpt sgt tersentap.. tp usually,xdela sampai gaduh2 yang xbaik2 ke ape.. selalunya kalau tersinggung tu,diam je la kjap..xlama lpas tu,da okay da.. hee :) but i will try my best to change a little ya,to bit less sensitive next time.. thee hee hee.. yang cmburu tu pun btul gak.. opppss..bahaya gak ea byk yg btul ni.. huhu..and then i wonder,which one is me? tersangat baik kah atau yang paling jahat kah? hhmm..terpulangla pada orang untuk menilai,yang sebenar-benarnya tahu hanyalah Allah SWT.. sbb kadang2 kita sndiri pn x knal diri kta kan.. okayla..sampai sini je kot... saya rasa kalau sape2 yg ada psgn tu and nak knal psgn dia,bolehla cuba application ni.. manalah tau,btul lak kan..k lah,sampai di sini saja untuk hari ini.. semoga kita jumpa lagi.. owh ya,bahasa agak santai ye untuk post kali ni.. hee.. gembira sangat sebab dapat jawap lak test calculus tadi.. ^___^ take care everyone.. assalamualaikum :)

p/s: pakai inai tak semestinya orang tu dah tunang or kawin tau.. i'm not anyone's wife or fiancee okie...hee...wearing inai is simply for fun.. ^_^

Especially for You... ^-^

2011-03-13T09:04:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum...ohaiyo gozaimas! buenas dias!(sorry if the spelling is incorrect,but i'm sure you get what i mean - good morning!) hee.. a little spirited today..maybe because i have enough sleep.. haha.. oh well..back to the real purposes of writing this... especially for you,that will be to my parents.. my mommy and daddy,my mama and abah..hehehe.. they have just recently celebrated their 21st wedding anniversary which was on the 3rd of march..however,i am kinda busy that day,so i did wish them in the morning but can't really find the time to post anything here... so,now.. this is all for you mom and dad.. ^_____^

I'm going to make this post short and simple yet meaningful..i hope.. :) On the 6th of march,me and a few friends went to Rumah Peyakin,Klang..it's an orphanage.. I'm sure you knew that already mom,you have seen the photos too right? but,being there,it sure makes me feel glad that i still have parents.. though sometimes, we might have a little bit of misunderstanding.. (i know i'm always the rebellious one.. hehe..),and though there are distance between us now,and i can't come and see you whenever i want to,i'll always remember the two of you..i miss you guys so much.. i love you sooooo much... ^____^
I can't really find the right words to express exactly what i feel.. so,if there is by any chance,you decided to open my blog and read it, just listen to the song,I think that's good enough.. Because i know that both of you are always busy,and we can't talk very often..so,by this way.. at least I can let you know,even if I didn't say it out loud.. the lyrics to the song is below..hope you enjoy the song.. that's all from me for now.. Thank You mom and dad for your love,your care,your patience.. for simply everything... Love you.. last but not least,I'll Be Alright,okie? take care always.. muah! ^_____^

I'll Be Alright by Sarah Geronimo

It's time for me to let you know

I am so glad that I have you
Through all these years
I am so thankful

Now that I've grown
I'll always be thinking of you
With all the things you taught me so
Always remember

I'll be alright, I'll be OK
I will be good learning all the way
All from the heart, these things I do
I'll make you proud because I love you
I'll be alright, I'll be OK
I will be fine
And I'll be good all the way
All from the heart, these things I do
I'll make you proud because I do
I love you so

I will stand tall and I'll try not to fall
As I reach all of my goals
I will go on, I will move on
All because of you
For you

I'll be alright, I'll be OK
I will be good learning all the way
All from the heart, these things I do
I'll make you proud because I love you
I'll be alright, I'll be OK
I will be fine
And I'll be good all the way
All from the heart, these things I do
I'll make you proud because I do
I love you so
I love you so
I love you so

Especially from your daughter :

p/s: ayuh kita doakan semoga mangsa-mangsa tsunami di jepun dapat diselamatkan,semoga rakyat malaysia di sana juga terselamat hendaknya.. dan kepada yang telah terkorban,kita doakan moga mereka tenang di alam sana..to those family whose lost their members,I'm very very sorry for your loss.. be strong,have faith in Allah and accept it as a test from Allah..

Better You Die Than I...

2011-03-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hola everyone.. The title of the post sounds harsh don't you think? Well,first of all,it's not from me okay? I will never say that to anyone.. That's just an unacceptable thing to say. Actually,this is a dialogue from a series of drama called The Vampire Diaries.. I'm sure you know this story right? This dialogue was said by Katherine a.k.a Katerina Petrova.. She's a 500 years old vampire.. huhu.. She would rather save herself than others even if that means she have to kill..Pretty selfish,right? But who wants to die though? Let me share with you what I think...

Do we really need to be selfish?Do we really need to consider ourselves first than anyone else? Honestly,I have no answer to that especially when it comes to life and death.. but I think,in most cases,i mean in a typical situation that we sometimes face in our daily life,we will put others first right? especially our loved ones.. we heard about it a lot.. 'doesn't matter if we didn't get what we want,as long as our loved ones get what they want'..or something similar to that..

sometimes we wonder why are there bad people,criminals,bullies,etc.. can't they be good..? why do they use violence and ruin other people lives? what do they get exactly by behaving that way? Have you ever wonder to yourself did or did you not treat someone badly and totally not the way you are suppose to? Have you ever ask yourself,what if I become a bad person without realizing it..? You know,some people says that our abilities determine who we are and who we will be.. Some will say bullies become bullies because they are stronger,bigger body size,or have loud voice that can frighten others..

However,that is absolutely not true.. It's not our abilities that defines who we are,but it's our choices that really matters..It's US.. we choose who we want to be.. no matter what other people might think or say to us about it,we are who we are once we have decided to choose. There will always be a good and a bad side in each and and everyone of us.. but it's which side that we decide to act on is what matters.. we can't simply say that 'I'm bad because that's who I am,I'm chosen to be like this'.. one will not be a bad person if one never want to be bad..Some might say,'I have to,it's for my own good.. by hook or by crook,I'll get everything I want'.. that is totally wrong.. we must think about others as well.. think about what will it feels like if people treated us that way.. we don't have to be so selfish.. if we want people to respect us,respect them first.. if it's love that we need,love others first..and only then you will learn to have a feeling that will make you feel like you rather die than let anyone you love die before you..

Guess that's all I can say for now.. But remember everyone.. the decision is in our hands..it's our choice that counts.. we are good if we want to be one.. but please,don't choose to be bad.. don't be selfish.. in the end,you will only hurt yourself if you choose the wrong path... till I see you again in the next post.. take care ya.. assalamualaikum.. :)

MAGIC with MATHEMATICS..!!

2011-02-26T00:28:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hola my readers... well,I'm not exactly sure whether any of you know about this already or not but I learned about this last weekend,when all of Part 2 students from the Chemical Engineering Faculty have to go to a program under Kemahiran Insaniah..we listened to talks and then were divided into small groups to do LDK.. just with mathematics,we can actually predict or figure out how many siblings one have.. It's pretty confusing at first,when our facilitator did it,and I couldn't stop thinking about how to do it.. In the end,all you need is an extra speed in calculating the equation backwards or reversely.Below is how to do it...

Ask someone to calculate whatever value you say but he or she must not tell anything or say it out loud until you finish saying the equation.. You will then try to guess based on the final answer one gave and the magic is done if you guess correctly..^_^

older brothers that one have x 2 + 3 x 5 + older sisters one have x 10 + younger brothers or sisters = final answer..

take me as example.. i am the second out of three.. one older sister and one younger brother.. so the calculations will be..

0 x 2 +3 x 5 + 1 x 10 + 1 = 161

Just reverse the calculations and you will be able to guess correctly.. :) Seems like magic but it really is just maths... Have fun trying... that's all for now.. take care everyone.. good nyte.. assalamualaikum..

Wanita Api...^_^

2011-02-26T00:00:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. saja je ni... jumpa application kat facebook,tentang empat unsur dan rahsianya.. Tanah,api,air dan angin.. And based on my birthdate,I'm in the fire category.. huhu..dan di bawah ni adalah penerangannya...

Tiga yang lain pun ada gak.. tapi takde gmbar la ye.. btw,untuk girls je ye.. :)

WANITA TANAH
Wanita tanah dilahirkan di bawah zodiak Taurus (21 Apr – 20 May), Virgo (24 Aug – 23 Sept) dan Capricon (22 Dec – 20 Jan)

Seorang yang boleh dijangka, berwibawa dan praktikal penyabar dan bertolak ansur, mempunyai kehendak dalaman dari segi emosi dan material. Semangat produktif dan gigih yang disertai dengan sikap berhati-hati menjadikan wanita tanah berkemampuan mencapai kejayaan dalam perniagaan. Kebijaksanaan dan kepintaran yang diperolehi sering tersembunyi oleh air muka semulajadi yang pendiam dan tenang. Sifat marah yang terkawal serta keperluan untuk keteguhan dan kawalan sering terbawa-bawa dalam perhubungan yang amat konservatif, serius dan sederhana. Tidak mudah menunjukkan sifat penyayang tetapi wanita tanah adalah seorang kekasih yang setia dan berwibawa.

WANITA ANGIN
Mereka ini lahir di bawah lambang Gemini (22 May – 21 Jun), Libra (24 Sept – 23 Oct) dan Aquarius (21 Jan – 19 Feb)

Berterus terang, berminda aktif dan gemar mencari kepelbagaian dalam setiap aspek kehidupan. Berfikiran terbuka, mempunyai daya imaginasi dan inovatif, bagi mereka segalanya boleh dicapai. Bergaya, tenang dan tidak cerewet serta mempunyai keinginan semulajadi untuk mengamalkan sikap diplomasi dan saling bekerjasama bersungguh-sungguh. Sanggup mengorbankan kehendak atau idea mereka sendiri demi mencapai keharmonian dan mengelakkan perselisihan atau konflik. Sentiasa gigih untuk mendapatkan cinta yang terunggul, untuk berkonfrantasi. Kurang cenderung untuk menyampaikan perasaan sebenar yang terpendam dalam hati mereka. Dikenali dan diingati kerana sifat romantis dan manja.

WANITA AIR
Wanita air dilahirkan di bawah zodiak Cancer (22 Jun – 23 Jul), Scorpio (24 Oct – 22 Nov) dan Pisces (20 Feb – 20 Mac)

Mempunyai sifat semulajadi untuk berkembang maju. Mereka ini dipandu oleh perasaan hati. Mempunyai sifat mudah bersimpati. Berdaya imaginatif sentimental Mempunyai perasaan yang berubah-ubah, berhati-hati, tenang dan mudah tersentuh oleh emosi orang-orang yang berada disekeliling dan cepat mengeluarkan air mata dalam sebarang situasi yang menyedihkan. Mudah mengikut rentak emosi orang lain dan juga diri sendiri.

Kadang-kadang seronok kan baca rahsia-rahsia diri ni.. tapi tak boleh la percaya sangat kan.. sekadar panduan kata orang.. sebab kadang-kadang ada yang betul.. okayla,saja je ni.. tak tau nak post ape.. lame sangat da tak post ape2 kan.. hee.. take care everyone.. I'll post some other post shortly.. gud nyte.. assalamualaikum...^_^

Cebisan Rasa...

2011-02-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

Diamku bukan bermakna ku tak endah,
Juga bukan bermakna aku tak kisah,
Setiap kata-kata yang kuterima tanpa rela,
Semakin terluka hati ini mendengarnya..

Puas ku mencuba tersenyum mesra,
Mencari ruang agar diri diterima,
Namun tidak juga ku rasakan gembira,
Ia menghilang saat ku hampir dengannya..

Apakah hidup kan selamanya begini?
Jawapannya tak bisa aku temui,
Tak mahu ku terus menangis sendiri,
Izinkan aku untuk tersenyum kembali..

Usah kau tambah beban di jiwa,
Dengan gurauan yang tak kena tempatnya,
Usah kau duga diri yang lara,
Kelak terlafaz kata yang mengguris rasa...

Nukilan:
Azzahra Azhar
24.2.2011

Ia Tak Akan Kekal Selamanya...

2011-02-02T21:41:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera kepada semua yang membaca blog ni.. ^___^ selalu sangat da kan sy post dalam BI,kali ni kita guna BM la plak ea.. ^_^ Tapi tertanya-tanya tak apa la yang tak kekal selamanya ni ek? kalau nak difikirkan,agak banyak yang boleh diklasifikasikan sebagai tak kekal ni.. hidup kita di dunia ni pun tak kekal selamanya kan? hidup cuma sementara.. semua yang kita ada dalam dunia ni,semuanya hanya pinjaman dari Yang Esa.. yang akan diambil bila-bila masa sahaja..

Tapi,yang ingin saya kongsikan di sini adalah mengenai pangkat,darjat,status dan juga harta..Ia bersifat sementara tetapi ada yang menyalahgunakan kelebihan tersebut.. Selalunya,apabila kita ada status dan dikenali ramai,pasti orang akan memandang tinggi kepada kita..tapi kenapa ya,ada insan-insan yang bersikap angkuh,sombong dan memandang rendah kepada orang lain hanya kerana dirinya ada kelebihan tersebut? adat dunia,kita terdiri daripada pelbagai golongan.. namun itu bkan bermakna,golongan yang mungkin kekurangan dari segi harta dan kemewahan itu perlu ditindas atau dihina.. seringkali kita lihat di TV mahupun filem, pasti ada antaranya yang berkaitan dengan perbezaan darjat..apa yang ada sebenarnya dengan darjat? hanya kerana kita hidup dengan kemewahan,salahkah kiranya kita menerima seseorang yang tidak berharta untuk menjadi sebahagian daripada keluarga kita? tercalarkah maruah sekiranya kita berbuat demikian? salahkah kita menerima orang yang mungkin kelam masa lalunya namun bersedia untuk berubah? bimbang dosa yang lalu akan terpalit pada diri atau bimbang mengenangkan tanggapan orang?

sekiranya kita terlalu mendengar kata-kata orang di sekeliling,maka kita tak akan pernah dapat berfikir dengan rasional.. semua yang berlaku itu ada hikmahnya.. semua yang Allah SWT ciptakan itu ada sebabnya.. Sebagaimana hidupnya kaum Adam yang memerlukan kaum Hawa menjadi pasangan hidupnya,begitulah juga daripada segi darjat dan harta.. Setiap kelebihan yang ada pada seseorang adalah kekurangan kepada orang lain.. dan setiap kekurangan yang ada pada seseorang adalah kelebihan kepada orang lain.. Allah SWT menciptakan manusia dengan pelbagai kepandaian,dan meskipun berbeza darjat dan pangkat,kepandaian yang ada itulah yang akan saling melengkapi di antara satu sama lain.. tak salah kan sekiranya seorang yang hidupnya mewah,terlalu mewah sehinggakan baju yang dipakai sekali dibuang begitu saja,sebaliknya menyedekahkan baju2 itu kepada yang memerlukannya.. jangan pernah memandang rendah kepada mereka yang hidupnya susah..kerana tanpa mereka,tak akan ada orang yang hidup senang....kita tak mungkin dapat hidup dalam rumah yang selesa jika tak ada buruh2 yang mahu membina rumah tersebut..

Bersikap rendah diri adalah sikap yang terbaik.. janganlah bongkak dengan apa yang kita ada... jangan pula mengeluh hanya kerana kita punya kekurangan.. tiada manusia di dunia ini yang sempurna.. dan tak ada apa yang kekal selamanya melainkan Allah Yang Maha Esa.. sampai di sini sahaja untuk kali ini.. semoga kita punya kesempatan untuk dipertemukan lagi.. Assalamualaikum.. Selamat malam.. semoga mimpi yang indah..^_^

True Love.. Will there be any other?

2011-01-31T21:17:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hai everyone..This is an inspiring story of a true love.. It sure makes me feel like crying when I watched this video.. it proved that true love does exist in the real world.. i wonder,will there be any other guy that will love someone juz like he love his girlfriend? becuz,he is like one in a million.. can't really find a guy like him nowadays..huhu.. True love is when you stand by your loved one's side through anything,until the very end.. I wish everyone including me will find the love of our life,our significant other..and live happily ever after.. ^_____^

hope this video brings inspiration to you too.. take care.. assalamualaikum..

Every Ending is A New Beginning...

2011-01-31T19:08:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum and hello everybody..It's been weeks since I last posted something here,isn't it? Too busy with other things,I guess.. Plus,don't really have any idea to write anything.. If any of you have been following this blog,I'm sure you noticed that the song has changed.. Well,if you really are a loyal follower,you sure know how well the songs I put in this blog is connected to my own story,my own feelings.. so,allow me to elaborate on why I chose these songs.. first song is When The Last Teardrop Falls by Blaque..and this is the lyrics..

"When The Last Teardrop Falls"

It's so hard to lose the one you love
To finally have to say goodbye
You try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on
And all that you can do is cry
Deep within your heart you know it's time to move on
When the fairy tale that you once knew is gone

[Chorus:]
When the last tear drop falls
I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories
And all of what used to be

When the last tear drop falls
I will stand tall
And know that you're here with me in my heart
When the last tear drop falls

So now I'm alone and life keeps movin' on
But my destination still unknown, oh yeah
Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?
When I was meant to walk these streets alone
If there was just one wish I could be granted here tonight
It would be to have you right back by my side

[Chorus]

Now it's time for me to find my happiness again
And the emptiness from missin' you
Will never ever end, baby

[Chorus]

Just like what my title stated.. every beginning will come to an end.. and every ending will be a new beginning.. i've been holding on to these words for years now,it became my motivation to keep on living this life..This was written by me,months ago.. about how I felt during that time.. Almost about the same time I first heard this song..

Days have passed me by.. so many things have changed,and somehow,so do I.. At first I thought that it was going to be really hard to live with memories that I know I will never experience them again.. To live knowing there's no one I can turn to whenever I need someone to talk when actually,I have a lot of people in my life but still I need that particular one.. At first I thought holding on is better..little that i know,that is why i felt hurt all along.. for holding on and hoping for something that will never come true,should I say it's the biggest mistake ever??now that i've let go..life seems a bit simple.. too simple till boredom came knocking..and lonesome slowly settling in my heart.. i guess it's better that way..

Makes sense for a heartbroken person,isn't it?I'm pretty sure during that time,that is the best decision I could come out with.. And it's been a while now..and I've been thinking.. do you know what makes life so interesting? the memories.. regardless of whether it is good or bad,but those memories shaped us to be who we are today..but one thing that we must always remember.. there is no one that never get hurt.. there is no one that even for a single moment in life,never feel sad.. everyone went through the same thing.. each and everyone of us have our own desires.. but does it mean if we don't get what we want,we will be unhappy forever? does it mean that if we did get what we want,that it is a guarantee that we will be happy? sometimes we will get what we need instead of what we want.. and what really matters is we take everything head on,not running away or making up excuses,not moaning over it and keep asking why... we should go through every hurdle that crosses our way,and then only we will become a stronger person..and finally brave enough to take the first step again.. it's time to keep all the memories close to our heart as something we will treasure for the rest of our life..goodbyes is not the end..so,don't let that memories of goodbyes hold you back from saying hello..which brings me to the second song.. One Hello by Toni Gonzaga..here is the lyrics...

One Hello-Toni Gonzaga

If you're not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It's a chance you'll take
It's a chance you'll win
If someone's gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you're not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you'll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh...
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

Even though I'm trying to be strong,to be brave to take the first step again,I won't deny the fact that I am afraid of the outcomes,I am scared of what future holds for me.. I'm trying as best as I can to keep moving forward and to start a new life,to have a new beginning.. However,until now,all of the Hello ended earlier than I expected..I believe that there's a reason for everything and maybe the reason is I may not be strong enough.. maybe I still need some more time... maybe I still need to really convince myself that better thing awaits for me.. and whatever happens,I will still have memories that I can learn from,and I will be happy if I allow myself to.. No one other than ourselves that will decide everything about our life.. so,take as many time as we can to think and decide what is best for ourselves.. because in the end,everyone desire is the same.. to find happiness... endings may hurt,endings may seems like everything's over and nothing is going to be the same,but some changes is necessary,and everything will be alright again,if we take the first step to a fresh start,to a new beginning..

That's all I have to say for now... This post is simply what I felt and what I have learned after everything that I have went through..It's not easy to stand up after falling so hard,the wound won't heal quickly,the pain may not fade away,but it's better to feel and experience this kind of things now,than to never feel it at all..Take care everybody.. good night.. assalamualaikum..:)

Drown in Thoughts..

2011-01-15T19:26:00.002+08:00

Have any of you ever feels like you really want to help someone yet incapable of doing so..? Have you ever have a dream that seems so easy to achieve yet that easy way is wrong? So,you try to find a way where you can help and achieve that dream too in the right way..but then,you find no way at all.. That's exactly how I feel now... I mean.. somehow,the fact that I can't be that much of help really make me feels so useless.. It's like everything just seems more like a burden than actually worth doing... Tried to find solution for quite a while now.. but didn't find anything that's convincing enough.. I don't know for how many days have I been this way.. lost in my own mind.. drown in my own thoughts.. and I don't know for how many days am I able to bear all of this..I really want to do something that can make me feel good about myself.. and can offer enough help to those who really needs it.. I really wish one day,I'll stop worrying about this thing that really is bothering me right now.. Because it only makes me feel so unhappy.. distracted as well.. hopefully I am able to get back the true smile I've lost and actually be happy..

Ceritera Gembira... :)

2011-01-05T18:52:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Good evening readerz! huhu.. Nak tahu tak kemudahan apa yang kurang sekiranya anda menjadi pelajar UiTM terutamanya di kampus induk la.. di Shah Alam.. Pelajar degree hanya akan diberikan kemudahan asrama untuk satu semester sahaja.. selepas itu,katanya terpulang lah kepada kolej kediaman untk meluluskan permohonan anda untuk mendapatkan tempat di kolej ataupun tidak.. dan selepas menanti keputusan rayuan,akhirnya ada jugak nama kat rayuan kedua.. kalau xde,menangis dah ni.. huhuhu..dan akhirnya ptg td,da selesai kmas kan semua barang-barang..dapat bilik kat tingkat 7 kolej Mawar.. nasib baik ada lif.. kalau tidak? mak aihh.. lagi rela tmpg kat bilik sesiapa yg kat level satu kot... hahaha...But still,Alhamdulillah... sekurang-kurangnya untuk sem ni ada gak la tmpt nak tggl.. nak duduk kat luar,masih terlalu awal kot.. huhu.. tapi sekarang ni roomate takde pun lagi..da kenal da masa pndftrn tp takde gak dia pindah masuk.. bilik ni bilik berdua..so,dah roomate xde,sorg2 la maknanye.. huhu.. i can have the whole room for myself.. best gak tu.. haha.. ^______^ okayla,let's cut this short.. kalau my friend,risna, sangat obses dgn warna hijau..well.. i guess sy seorang yang sgt obses dgn warna biru dan putih.. hee..anda boleh lihat buktinya dalam gmbr-gmbr di bawah.. :) tapi maafla ye.. kamera hp CSL jew.. agak kurang la kejelasan gmbrnya.. kamera kat pusat servis,rosak..huhu..isk3...

kurang jelas kan gmbr ni?xpe2..gmbr setrusnya lbih jelas.. tp da boleh nmpak kan betapa minatnya sy ngan warna biru tu.. hee..

clearer isn'it ? masa sem lepas,one of my classmates kata kalau dia pg bilik sy,seakan-akan mcm laut ke langit.. sy tak ingt lak yang mana satu..tp cmtu ea.. byk sgt biru..hehe..

haaa...sape ingat my birthday wishlist.. dalam byk2 wish tu..sy dpt dua daripadanya.. kira okay la gak.. hee.. walaupun lain skit.. remember the first one,sy nak chocolate cadbury.. tp sy dpt Vochelle white chocolate with almonds which is actually really2 delicious.. hee.. dan kononnya nak teddy bear warna putih.. dan akhirnya dapat biru lak.. haha.. tapi memandangkan comel sgt..okay jew la... heee...^_^ so what if it seems childish? there will always be a child in us.. no matter how old we are.. huhu..

Huhu..conclusion for this post? simple..I'm simply feels really happy.. and grateful of course..dan saya menyokong sahabat saya,Risna.. no matter which colour that one like and how they express their feeling of liking a particular colour,that's up to them...jangan la kutuk2 atau mengejek.. anda msti tak suka kan kalau orang ejek anda ttg apa yang anda suka..? jadi jgn la buat pada orang lain.. i've seen a lot of people that are obsessed by their favourite colours.. i don't mind admitting i'm one of them.. huhu... love blue and white always.. biru adalah warna ketenangan dan putih adalah warna kebersihan..both suit me very well.. hee.. by the way.. sebelum ditamatkan post yang tidak begitu pasti apa motifnya.. masa dalam flight hari tu,baca ea newspaper.. terjumpa quote ni sempena tahun baru.. it's good one.. I dedicated it to all of you..no matter who you are.... semoga kita kan ada kesempatan untuk bertemu lagi.. jaga diri ye.. assalamualaikum.. see ya in the next post... :)

NEW YEAR WISHES
May peace fill the empty spaces around you,
And in you,may contentment answer all your wishes,
May comfort be yours,warm and soft like a sigh.
And may the coming year show you that,
every day is really a first day,a new year.
Let abundance be your constant companion,
so that you have much to share..
May mirth be near you always,
like a lamp shining brightly on the many paths you travel..

Words from Frustrated Heart..

2011-01-03T00:42:00.001+08:00

A post without a proper beginning but surely will end though how will it be is still unknown.. This whole words that I'm typing in is simply and purely coming from the very bottom of my heart..a heart that's frustrated..

When everything seems so simple and easy before.. but I can't have it for long... Bigger challenges begin to appear along the way.. challenges that I have never even thought of it crossing my journey of life.. causing me fully distracted and confused.. I was becoming weak as I try to keep flying on the same level I was in for a very long time,perhaps ever since I was born..And as I was trying to reach for a higher level,I was forced to land back on the ground.. and it was bad.. really bad.. it hurts when everything shattered in front of my eyes.. all the things that I think should be mine were now things that I may never have..No matter how much i hoped it to be..

Once I'm back on ground,looking towards the sky makes me realize how hard for me to reach it again.. I'm like a bird with broken wings.. Like a guitar with broken strings.. not knowing what will happen next.. not knowing where this new life will take me to.. It really took me quite some time to figure out what am I suppose to do... and somehow,I think I'm in the right path again.. only now,starting from the very beginning.. Still,it will never be easy to get to that level of mine before isn't it.. And I'm left questioning myself every second whether or not I'm up to this new condition and whether I'm fully ready for it.. mentally,physically,spiritually as well..

There were moments when I asked myself what will be the easiest way to stop whatever feeling that I felt inside,the easiest way to not be thinking negatively about life.. Though several are there always to stay by my side.. yet it never seems nor feels complete.. When I'm in misery,when my eyes was watery,when I couldn't think straight,someone should be there to wipe the tears away.. When I believed I was treated unfairly,when I want to yell at someone in front of their face,someone should do that for me..or calm me down at least.. When I'm in the state of shock and feels like telling the reason,someone should be there to listen to it and will not judge me or my feelings.. Should i say more? Will it be more clear if I say I am craving.. for it.. maybe not that close.. but yes.. I do need it..Only now.. my mind and not to forget my heart didn't seems to let any name stands out even just a little bit more than others..

I guess that left me..just me all over again.. Everything should be buried deep down inside,where it can never resurfaced.. yet I have no idea now how to exactly do that.. because all ways I've tried didn't seems to work after all.. I'm still on the ground.. wandered around trying to ease the pain,the burden.. and now I'm feeling worse than ever..should I put an end to all this words? did i waste your time as you read it through..?I'm not surprised if it did.. see how I have to turn to this thing if I ever want to let everything out.. that's hard.. I find it sometimes impossible to go to sleep at night dreamless.. I knew the cause of it.. I'm thinking too much.. People advised that I should stop thinking so hard about something so simple but does it ever occur to you how that simple thing was an enormous thing for me..? Hoping for a bit of understanding now.. I guess this is the end.. Goodnyte everyone..

A Night of Celebration..

2011-01-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hola everybody.. well..juz to share this with all of you.. on 26th December.. my mom decided that we should held a small birthday party for me and my brother.. not really a party though..more like a barbecue night and those who were invited were neighbours and my parents' friend.. huhu.. well..it's a great night..i enjoyed playing with all the kids.. they are all very cute and friendly.. that little girl i'm holding in one of the pictures below actually likes it when i carry her around..huhu.. it feels so great seeing them growing up more and more every time when we met.. huhu.. i guess that's all i want to say..the pictures will describe more accurate about it than any words.. guess i'll see you in the next post.. btw..thanks to my parents for a great birthday celebration.. I love you both.. ^____^ assalamualaikum...

The birthday cake.. Chocolate cheese... thanks to Secret Recipe.. i don't like chocolate btw.. but I know i can never finish a cake all by myself so it will be best to buy a cake that everyone like.. hee^_^

that little girl i'm holding,she's cute right? love her.. hee..:)

kesian..sorang2 ja tgk kamera.. kek tu nampak sdap sgt kot.. :P

Me n my bro did cut the cake together at first.. then I give a chance to that little baby to cut the cake with me too.. I juz love her.. she rarely smile and that what makes it feels like a challenge to me.. because when she smiles,there's nothing in this world that can compare to its sweetness.. ^___^

suka kerang bakar tu.. haha..

Yummy.. simple yet very satisfying..

My house was crowded.. with kids and adults.. huhu..

Selamat Tahun Baru 2011..

2011-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

- FYI=>This is a scheduled post-

Assalamualaikum.. Hello my readers.. Akhirnya tiba juga tahun baru 2011.. Saya mengambil kesempatan ini untk mengucpkn Selamat Tahun Baru kepada semua yang membaca.. Happy New Year.. semoga azam kita semua akan tercapai tahun ini.. azam saya? akan saya kongsikan bersama anda juga nanti.. hee.. semoga hidup kita semua akan terus diberkati Allah SWT hendaknya.. pada pagi nanti,saya akan berangkat pergi ke Kuala Lumpur untuk kembali meneruskan pengajian di UiTM Shah Alam..Doakan semoga saya selamat sampai ye.. ^____^

That's all for now ya.. Take care everybody.. Have a good night sleep.. celebrate,celebrate jugak tapi jangan sampai memudaratkan diri ya.. Assalamualaikum..

Selamat Tinggal 2010..

2010-12-31T23:24:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hola everyone.. actually ada cerita yang dikongsikan tapi asyik tak berkesempatan je..takpela..insyaAllah akan dipostkan secepat yang mungkin.. hee.. apa-apapun...hari ni merupakan hari terakhir bagi tahun 2010.. kalau nak difikir2kan kembali,terlalu banyak yang telah terjadi tahun ini.. TERLALU banyak.. suka,duka,kecewa,riang tawa,sedih.. macam2lah.. semua ada.. huhu.. kalau nak buat kronologi pun.. rasanya mmg pnjg la post ni nanti.. mungkin di post yang akan datang la ye.. saya fikirkan dulu kesimpulan yang padat dan ringkas.. hee.. entah2 nanti keluar juga ayat bunga2,jiwang2.. hik3.. biasala..emosi sekali-sekala.. hahaha...

Okayla.. tujuan post ni sebenarnya hanyalah untuk menutup lembaran ceritera 2010.. kata orang, kita tutup buku lama,kita buka buku baru.. betul tak? dan dengan bermulanya ceritera baru di tahun 2011 nanti,akan ada lebih banyak cetera yang boleh saya kongsikan bersama anda...

Dengan ini..haha..skemanya... secara rasminya... Memoirs of Azzahra Azhar - Ceritera 2010 kini berakhir..

Kita jumpa lagi di tahun yang baru ya... Selamat Tinggal 2010.. Satu tahun yang penuh dengan nostalgia..Sekian dulu untuk kali ini.. Take care everyone.. :)Assalamualaikum..

Di Hari Lahir Yang Ke-19...

2010-12-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. hai readers.. well,today is my 19th birthday,,so,happy birthday to me.. hehe.. today wasn't really different from any other day since that there is no celebration or anything like that... adala kot jamuan kecil tapi bukan hari ni.. so,lets say the celebration was postponed to a date that will be selected later.. hee.. whatever it is.. I am very2 happy today since that my Facebook wall is full with birthday wishes from all my fren that I've known since i was in primary school till now..it's really amazing how Facebook enables us to find them and stay connected even though it's been years that we last saw each other.. Di sini,saya sertakan sedikit coretan pada malam semalam.. kira2 30 minit seblum tgh malam.. hee.. sekadar coretan yang hadir saat diri berganjak ke usia 19 tahun... ^____^

21 Disember..hari yang menjadi saksi diri ini dilahirkan ke dunia yang sementara.. dan hari ini,genap 19 tahun diriku bernafas di muka bumi Allah yang cukup indah. Mungkin ia hari yang menggembirakan,mungkin ia hari yang cuma mewujudkan pelbagai persoalan di minda.. saat ternantikan ucapan sebagai tanda ingatan,terbit jua secalit rasa pengharapan kepada yang tak pasti.. kini,terjelas nyata diri semakin dewasa..usia yang bertambah hanyalah petanda betapa pendeknya masa yang ada di dunia ini sebelum kembali pada Pencipta Yang Maha Esa.. semakin lama mengenali dunia,semakin banyak mempelajari tentang hidup,semakin diriku tak mengerti akan banyak perkara..

Pabila diri dikelilingi pelbagai situasi dan keadaan,ia menimbulkan rasa ingin tahu yang cukup mendalam.. apakah sempat untuk diri ini melaluinya sebelum ajal hadir membawaku pergi..apakah sempat digapai segala impian dan cita-cita yang terlakar di hati sejak kecil.. apakah akan berjaya diri ini mengorak langkah di jalan yang betul dan menemui kebahagiaan yang dicari.. semuanya terlalu awal untuk ku tahu jawapannya.. persoalan yang tiada jawapan yang pasti selagi ia belum terjadi sendiri..

Kehairanan seketika saat hanya berada di sini tanpa memahami apa puncanya yang dewasa seakan anak-anak kecil yang mengikut kata hati tanpa akal dan yang tak mengerti pula menjadi penyelesainya.. perlukah diri ini mengeluh kerana diuji dengan pelbagai dugaan dan cabaran yang cukup payah atau seharusnya bersyukur kerana semua itu ternyata mematangkan diri lebih dari yang sepatutnya..matang pada pemikiran melebihi usia yang masih muda..

Bukan hadiah yang diperlukan,cuma insan yang boleh dikongsi suka dan duka bersama.. bukan perhatian istimewa yang diminta,cuma sahabat yang akan ada saat diri mahu berceritera..juga bukan majlis yang diimpikan,sekadar mahukan keluarga yang bahagia untuk selamanya…Selamat Hari Lahir wahai diri...

Itu je la kot yang sempat tercoret malam tadi..hee.. well,I'm running out of time since that I'm not using my own broadband to surf the Net for now.. I'll make this simple...i want to thank all my frenz,relatives and family for i don't know,more than 80 wishes i guess at my facebook.. i really2 appreciate it.. thank you so much ya.. it really make my day.. hee... and also thanks to my frenz that wished me via SMS especially Zalikha for being the first one.. thanks dear..^_^ and also unexpected wish from a special fren as the second one.. thank you ya.. I'm happy knowing u still remember.. and for the next five which is Muhaimin,Dad,Mom,Fyza and Zauwiyah.. thank you so much... :) amat2 menghargainya.. hee.. I guess that is all for now.. take care everybody.. today may not be the best birthday ever but i sure have a lot of fun today.. I'm still happy.. I'm just so glad that I'm alive for this long.. hee.. have a good night sleep everyone.. assalamualaikum...

My 47 Minutes Survey..

2010-12-17T19:48:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hola everyone.. Tgh seronok tengok rancangan Warung Kita kat Astro Prima.. lokasinya kat Sarikei dan Saratok,Sarawak.. Aduhaii..rindu gak rasenye nak balik Srwak tu.. Especially Sarikei la.. ada la beberapa orang adik-beradik my mom tggl kat situ..so,selalu la balik sana especially masa raya.. hee.. Sambil-sambil tengok,online la gak..Tup-tup,kawan saya yang sorang ni da tag saya lak.. haha.. so,saya pun jawap la ye.. hee.. seronok jawap tag ni..haha.. thanks risna! ^_____^

PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU: ~Risna~
STARTING TIME: 1959

NAME: Azza,Zahra,Angah,Ara,Teeqa,Atiq..(byknya..haha)

FULL NAME: Nurazzahra Atiqah Binti Azhar

SIBLING (s): ea.. agak sukar soalan ini.. abg angkat termasuk tak ek? haha.. 3 la buat masa ni..

EYE COLOR: black kot.. hee..

SHOE SIZE: 4 atau 5.. atau 36.. hee..

HAIR: hhmm.. biarlah rahsia.. wakaka..

HEIGHT: ni tak best ni.. haha.. 143 cm kot.. 4 kaki 8 inci je.. sy sdar 'kerendahan' diri.. haha:P

WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW: red t-shirt and black trousers

WHERE DO YOU LIVE: kota kinabalu,sabah..

FAV. NUM: ermm.. 2 maybe..

FAV.DRINK: horlick ice and carrot susu

FAV. MONTH: December lor..my bday maa.. hee..

FAV. BRAKFAST: apaka ini? breakfast adela.. hee.. kalau breakfast,half-boiled eggs kot..

*****HAVE YOU EVER*****

BROKEN A BONE: hhmm.. nope..

BEEN IN A POLICE CAR: don't think so.. motorsikal polis mungkin ade.. masa tadika..
FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: yup!

FALLEN FOR A GIRL/GUY IN A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME: yup2!

SWAM IN A OCEAN: yupz.. best... hee...

FALLEN ASLEEP IN SCHOOL: haha.. yezza,worst was during matriks,rite risna?DK itu sgt sesuai untuk ttow...

BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART:Ermm,ya? Yeah.. it wasn't an easy thing to do..

CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: Yupz..

SAT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO CALL: Used to.. not anymore now..

SAVED E-MAILS: if it's important,yupz..

BEEN CHEATED ON: Nope..

*****WHAT*****

YOUR ROOM LOOK LIKE: a simple room shared by two girls that love two different colour.. you can actually see the difference on our belongings..full of blue and pink..

WHAT IS RIGHT BEDISE YOU: a cushion?? haha

WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE: hhmm.. rice with chicken soup...

*****EVER HAD*****

CHICKEN POX: ntahla.. even my mom don't remember about that when i asked.. haha..

SORE THROAT: yezza..

STITCHES: yupz.. when i was a little girl.. on my forehead near to my hair.. hehe..

BROKEN NOSE: nope..

*****DO YOU*****

BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: not sure.. i'm pretty sure i don't believe in love for this time being..

LIKE PICNICS: absolutely.. it's fun.. hee:)

*****WHO*****

WHO DID YOU LAST YELL AT: my brother.. huhu..

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU DANCED WITH: aduyai... tak ingatlah...my sis kot.. saat gila2.. haha

WHO LAST MADE YOU SMILE: my mommy.. hee

*****FINAL QUESTIONS*****

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: Luluh by Samsons

WHAT DID YOU DID TODAY: helping my sis with the chores in the morning and spent my evening watching TV.. hehe...

ARE YOU THE OLDEST: nope.. I'm the middle one.. hehe..

INDOORS OR OUTDOORS: Both? I don't mind.. both can be fun.. hee..

*****TODAY DID YOU*****

TALK TO SOMEONE YOU LIKE: Nope...

KISS ANYONE: Nope...

SING: I don't think so.. batuk ea.. tak ley nak nyanyi.. haha..

TALK TO AN EX: Nope..

MISS SOMEONE: Yeahh.. always..

EAT: yupz.. baru je tadi.. hee..

*****LAST PERSON WHO*****

YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: my dad..

MADE YOU CRY: i haven't cry for awhile already.. ntahla.. hee..adala tu..

WENT TO THE MOVIES WITH: huhu.. my frenz..tp lama da..

YOU WENT TO THE MALL WITH: my mom,my sis and my bro.. hee..

WHO CHEERED UP YOU: hee.. my frenz and family..

*****HAVE YOU*****

BEEN TO MEXICO: never.. isk3..

BEEN TO USA: never la.. haha..dlm mimpi ja..

*****RANDOM*****

HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: of course! hee

WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING RIGHT NOW: none.. hee..

BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD: loved of course..

FUTURE KIDS NAME: i really love this name.. Rayyan Darwish.. hehe..

DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL: nope.. tdur brbntalkn lengan pn ok.. hee..

WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED: my bed?? my sis.. haha.. katil double deck maa.. sy kt atas.. hee..

FAV. PLACE: my home la..

WHO DO YOU REALLY HATE: tak pernah benci orang dengan erti kata benci yang sebenar-benarnya.. tak suka ckit la kat orang2 yg lupa diri.. hee

DO YOU HAVE A JOB: nope..

WHAT TIME IS IT NOW: 2046

p/s: with however long it took you to complete this, post as "My _ Minutes Survey" and tag
15 person...it took quite awhile for me to finish this post since that my dad's on the phone asking me to check on something..huhu.. guess that is all.. i'm kinda lazy to tag anyone right now.. hee.. i'll update it later maybe.. hehe.. take care.. daa..

I Was Enchanted...

2010-12-12T23:10:00.007+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Hai everyone..^-^ as how you can see,my blog have changed.. hee.. it's quite hard to find this template.. However,my blog will change again.. Not sure when but till I found a new template that maybe suits my personality a bit more.. hee :)(don't get me wrong,this one is really great and it suits me as well but you know,I'm a fan of blue.. haha)..btw,that link below the header are not functioning ya..(perhiasan ja.. :P)

Wondering what my post is about? To those who might have been following my blog from time to time,you might as well noticed that the song's changed..It's Enchanted by Taylor Swift..Come on,everything happened for a reason right? Life goes on,let's move on.. Enough with the past already.. I'm keeping it deep in my heart as one of the good memories... memories that can't belong to me forever.. So,lets create new ones..After all the heartbreaks,I do deserved to be happy again,aren't I ? ^-^

Have you ever met someone and even though you barely knew each other,your mind was already full of all the possibilities that can happen between the two of you..? you started to dream about him,what he'll say to you... and all you can see is how perfect you are for each other.. you were anxiously waiting for him to say 'hai' and you have all these wishful thoughts of him not being in love with anyone,hoping that he felt the same for you..
It's obvious,wasn't it?Huhu..I met someone.. Someone that made me feel so..Enchanted! I'm so happy and hoping that it's the first page of a new story..^-^ But that was what I felt a few weeks ago.. Now,I'm kinda give up.. hee.. So much for a happy ending huh? However.. this is totally me being honest with what I felt ya.. He's a good person.. I might as well fall even more for him the moment I look in his eyes..Because it was so Enchanting...(wuu..haha).. Who that person might be,I will not say..hehe... So,as you can see,the title I put for my playlist is 'Words Unspoken..' This clearly shows that all the songs that I put in my playlist are the exact words that was left unspoken either purposely or because I never have the chance to say so..Trust me,I'll listen to thousands of songs to find that one song that can represents everything I want to say..Therefore,here's the lyrics.. :)

ENCHANTED-TAYLOR SWIFT
Here I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered "have we met?"
Across the room your silhouette starts to make it's way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up
2am, who do you love?
I wonder till I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say,Hey,
It was enchanted to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

In the end.. even though I'm wonder-struck and continuously muttered this words,'Please don't be in love with someone else,Please don't have somebody waiting on you',I guess it could be just a crush.. huhu..but hey,anything can happen right? so,maybe it's better to just wait and see.. who knows that maybe sometimes,it can be worthwhile..^-^

All I can say is Taylor Swift's songs are songs that teenage girls all around the world can really relate to.. Even though she's a star,all her experience are just like normal girls..Dumped by guys she loved,had a crush on someone,everything she went through,we experienced them too..And thanks to this Enchanted song,it defines everything I felt.. I was undeniably,100% ENCHANTED..hee.. I guess that's all for now.. Take care everyone.. Assalamualaikum..^-^

Alhamdulillah...

2010-12-10T07:39:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.. Alhamdulillah.. selepas lama menanti.. sampaikan berharap sangat hari ni boleh dihilangkan sebab terlampau nervous untuk tahu keputusan exam sem 1,tapi hari ni tetap datang juga kan.. and dapatlah keputusan yang baik tapi tak seperti yang diharapkan la.. huhu.. yang penting,takde repeat mana2 paper untuk next sem...so,Alhamdulillah.. hee.. :) takpela.. I'll try again next sem.. untuk dpt pointer yg lebih tinggi.. huhu.. that's all for now everybody.. to all my frenz yg da check results,hopefully okay la ea semua.. take care... have a great day.. assalamualaikum.. ^______^